So, I wanted to post something for Christmas,, but I couldn't. I was wrapped so tight, trying to keep it all together. I was afraid to let my guard down, for fear that I wouldn't be able to put all the pieces back together again. I wanted to try and make new memories for the kids, and not have the holiday be sad, but we all got Spiderman gifts anyway and we know you were there.
As everyone rings in the New Year and looks forward to a better 2015, I know for me there is no more happy New Year. The weight of your loss is unbearable at times, unlike any pain I have ever felt. I miss you so much and long to hear that obnoxious laugh. :) Stay close so I know you are near, it is all that keeps me going at times. You are forever that sweet child of mine. Merry Christmas my baby, hope you and grandpa had a blast.