Long before you left us, and again those last 3 days, you always said you were so much more comfortable at our house, on our used furniture where you could put your feet up, and be your real self! I'm sorry for all the times you didn't want to go home, especially to the white room at Xmas that you hated so much! And you were also right, my family was more real, more down to earth, less pretensions, than the phony way you had to pretend to be at home! And you were right, my family would never meet up to yours, that's why we had to sneak Shannon to you so often! Had they not opposed your real young love, you'd be my son in law, and you'd never have married Erica, therefore she'd have not broken your heart so! You and Shannon would have lived happily, anywhere, as shed have gone to Alaska if you'd asked, she loved you so! But you family didn't think she was good enough! I'm so sorry, I couldn't see it sooner! It would have changed everything! Now it's too late, and you're gone! I don't find it odd at all that you'd prefer to hang around an old rented room and watch TV with me, that go home and be in the white room you hated so much! I thought with all of shared with your mother, that we'd become real friends, she was teaching me things that helped me learn to tune into you! But my family lives in the real world, we've faced some tragic circumstances, and drama! Your mother can't cope with this! So I only have your guidance to follow now! I tried Kevin, I promise you that I really tried! But as always,, you were right! My family is beneath their standards! And you're so right, I can't be phony! I'm sorry that you ever had to be! I knew the real you, not the pretend one forced to go home! That last night, when you said you didn't want to go home,i thought you'd be back! Now I understand! Had you and Shannon stayed together as you planned, without interference, you'd still be here with us, not just in spirit!I know somehow I let you down, but now I do understand!I honestly love you, and it means everything that you've chosen to spend time with me! I love you very much, I will ALWAYS! Your 2nd Mom, Jennifer

Kevin, you are loved and missed by everyone you touched.  I am  thankful to have had you not only in my life but also as one of my two best friends.  You were taken from your family and friends before we were ready ~ but in your time on this earth you lived! I love you, brother and miss you.

Jason 

If I can leave one of my last memories of you,. It's when  watched you get down on one knee, and asked my daughter Shannon to marry you,! The years I'm your eyes tore me apart! The sincerity of this proposal was all over your face. It filled your eyes! You were the same Kevin she fell I'm love with in high school! How much I wish she had married you, as I always believed was meant to be! No you weren't hurt because you hurt Shannon, you must believe me! I know how you felt at the end,, more than anyone else! I treasure those last talks, the precious things you said that didn't click until you left! Like the thistle, the videos you were drawn to, "Batty blue eyes" cartoon, and of course "Leave Out All the Rest"!once I've upgraded your beautiful tribute page, I'll put your music here! Thank you so much for the CDs you made me, and making me the keeper of your music! I'll honor you, today and always! I love you, today I miss you more than ever! I guess as 10 years is only 3 months away, it gets much harder for me! I'll be so lost in March! Please let me know you are here, what you want on your ice cream cake! It'll be Batman, due to you enjoying " Gotham" with me, unless you tell me otherwise! Kisses, hugs( how I'd have held you longer the last hug, had I known it would be our last hug ever) your music playing everyday, cookies, and a thistle! All these and my broken heart, I give you today! Your 2nd mom

Do you remember our birthday treasure hunts? We used to hide your best gift, then leave clues throughout the house, as you found smaller gifts with clues to the next gift! We had you baffled a couple of times, had you searching in cabinets, under  beds, in flower bouquets! It was so much fun, your laughter made us all excited! Do you remembering finding out turtle during your search? And your big gift included your cake, and your very special present! Do you remember these? For me, being a part of your birthday was special, important, and I remember each thing as though it were yesterday! I still cannot pass someone wearing " Drakkar Noir" or " Polo" without turning to see if they resemble you! Of course, Boone can ever compare to you Kevin! I'll treasure my memories, and a friendship no one else can understand! My love to you every day, every hour,so you are with me all always! All my love always, Jennifer 

Im so glad i believe in signs Kevin.  And all the books you have sent my way through the years to help me understand.  You have your way of making things happen.  I have become friends with Jasons mom Jennifer.  I know this was all you.  I have become friends on facebook with your other friends as well.  It only took 9 years but you made it happen.  It will be nice to read some of their memories.  I love you more today and more with each day i wait till you come for me to join you.  There isnt a day that goes by that i wish you were here with me.  But only God knows why things happen the way they do. I know now that your job here was finished and all your lessons your learned.  There was no reason for you to stay. But we dont understand this i feel you had so much more to do and share. But i can accept you leaving if you are with God and happy.  Which i believe you are.. i am so glad this site forever missed found me and had me do this in your honor.  I know you forgive each one of us down here that did wrong to you as you are such a forgiving person.  I thank you for being such a wonderful son and loving man that you were. I will honor you and write to you often here.  Thank you for being you Kevin.  As i have alway tried to tell you unconditional love forever and always. I see and find your signs of love here often thank you for helping me to find the way to go on.  I am a better person because of you. Love your mom Sharleen Arnold Schutte

Ive been waiting for someone else to tell about the day on the ROTC bus, when you and Jason were messing everybody up with whip cream before a drill meet! I was a chaperone, and it's was crazy funny! You always had this way of cheering everyone with your sense of humor! You always told a joke, or poked at the kids, took their pictures, sometime all it took was your smile! But that day it was whip cream, and Chief wasn't pleased! But you and the rest of the drill team had so much fun! I was so lucky to have gone to all those drill meets! Thank you for being such an everlasting friend, protector, confidant, and close, considerate friend! Besides being my 2nd son! I love you Kevin! I miss you with every beat of my heart! Thank you for loving me back! I need your help now, and I know you've heard me talking to you all day! Please answer me! Kisses, hugs, cookies, too many tears, and " Leave Out All The Rest"! I promise!

Darling Kevin, can  you hear your songs playing  for you? I played every one  you chose, all night long! I fealf your comfort, like you held me after  I  wrote  your story, and then cried for 3 more hours! I thought  you we're trying  to calm me, as you used to, and  comfort me! I had my 5 the " more than  a dream " of you in these 9 years! I know  no one else  understads these, it's something  between  us alone! But I love you! I will love you forever! There  is nothing  and no one who could ever change our bond! Its still  strong, a I feel  it inside! Kevin, I've told others of this lovely  tribute  to you, and they will  write here too! I tried  calling  your mom, but only  got a machine and left a message!  I've wanted  to  talk  to  her for 9 years,  I was afraid  she wouldn't  understand  the truth! But after I spoke  with  your sister, and gave her information,  I believe  your mom may now be ready  to  face what  really  happened!  I am waiting  for her call, so I can  help  her  add your photos and musical  to this! I know  that  I  am the one with  your  playlist! Do you hear me talk to you? Do you see the lit candles? Do you hear your music,  at least twice  a  day? I morn you, in a serious  way, from  your  birthday  to Memorial day each year!  I mourn you all the time, but that special  time I go overboard!  I wear black, and I refuse to do anything,  except honor you! I've gone to the Catholic  church  and  burnt  candles for you every year,  and again  at  Christmas!  .are you laughing,  since I said I'd never go back?  I've had masses said in your name also! Kevin, I miss you more than  words can express! Thank you for all the love you showed us, especially  Jason! And thank you for loving  me back, like I love you! Eternally, Jennifer p.s. someone tell me how to place a photo  here please! 

Kevin became like  my 2nd son, when  he was commander  at ROTC, with my son Jason Gibbs! They we're on the drill team together,  my son being drill team commander! At every drill meet, they won an award! Kevin always  outshined everyone  else!  He was loving, kind, caring, considerate,  respectful, funny, talented, handsome, and had such SWASS! He touched my life in such a personal  way, that  my love  for him continues every day  these  last  9 years! My son, Jason Gibbs, has been  unconsolable,  and completely unable  to live a normal life, feeling he should  have  been  there, as Kevin always  was for him! My entire family  mourn  Kevin,  and it never ends! We will  never forget  his  smile,  his laugh, his favorite  songs, the charm he had, the love he showed us, and everything about  Kevin that  made him so unique and special!  I miss you, today  and always!  I play " Brother's In Arms" for you every day, remembering that  you  cried over that song with  me! Kevin, there are not words to say how empty and lonely our lives are without  you! I cannot  fathom how your dear mother faces each day, when  I  can barely face the world  alone! So many people  still  talk about  you in such a wonderful  way!  Its almost  like you we're superhuman, burning so brightly that your light had to burn out way too soon! I would  give  anything  to see you again,  but I try to believe  that  you're with God,  and someday I will  see you! Jason would  want me to tell you that he'll never get married  again,  because  you can't  be there as his best man! He is just a shell of who he used to be, from  losing  you! Kevin, I wouldn't  trade one minute  I ever had with you! I treasure our talks, both deep and  stupid! I treasure the gifts you gave me! But most of all, I treasure the love you showed  me, that continues  inside me, glowing like you did! Its what  I believe  keeps me alive! The only other thing I can say is " Thank You, for all the good you brought  to us, and to so many other people "! There will never be anyone like you ever again,  of that I'm sure! Jason cries like a baby every birthday, which we always  honor! We so respect your value to the Air Force, the dedication you showed! Its not my intention  to write  your story, it has already  been  written  beautifully  by you! It is my intent to honor you, miss you, love you, and tell the world  what  a miracle you really we're! Forgive me for not giving you one more hug, or one more kiss, or an extra cookie that last day! I know  how  deep our trust was, so I blame myself,  if you'd stayed at my house, we'd never have  lost you! You always  did things your way, and though  that's  hard to accept,  I know  it's true! I love you Kevin, with every beat of this old 

heart! Id have  traded my life for yours, if possible,  without  hesitation!   Thank you for the " more than  dreams", where  you show signs! Thank you for your family,  who are such good people!  Thank you for giving Jason 15 Great years as your best friend! Mostly, thank you for making  this  a better world while  you  were  here! And again,  thank you for letting  me love you,  and know  it was love returned to me! You said" leave out all the rest"! I understand  now! All that matters is to tell you I love you! You were  my 2 nd son! It was an honor I'll never get  past, or ever give up! Bless you! May you make everyone  love you in heaven as much as we do down  here! Ill see you soon Kevin, please  save a place  for  me! All my love, always,  Jennifer Gibbs