This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, Laryssa Nyland, 33, born on November 10, 1983 and passed away unexpectedly on March 12, 2017. Our hearts are broken. We will love and remember her forever. If you knew Laryssa, please share how you knew her or share something about her.
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Leave a tributeI was home. My family was there and I could see my dad walking from the kitchen to the dining room table with his coffee. He smiled at me while taking a sip and continuing to talk to mom and Claudia. Hearing them laugh at whatever he was saying to make them laugh, as I walked to the back of the house to do laundry. I bumped into Stef. We talked and bickered with each other until she left. After I was through folding and packing my laundry, I headed through the kitchen, Dad was cooking. I asked him where mom and Claudia had went. He told me they had taken off but would be back in a bit. I told him I loved him, giving him a hug and a kiss. I could smell the cigarettes and coffee, could feel the warmth in the hug. I blinked and suddenly I was unpacking my things in the house. I was moving in. I was in my sister's room when there was a knock at the door. I said, "Dad, can you get that?" He didn't respond. I opened the door and our sister was standing there, with all her things and animals. Lisa was home. She walked through the door talking about how much she missed us and where everyone was. I told her that they were out and was sure that they would be home soon. We then gave each other a kiss and hug. I could feel her warmth and smell the unique smell of the animals on her, that she loved and cared for so much. I could see her. We chatted for a bit ( stuff I don't remember) even now as I write this down, I'm forgetting. The dream's fading. The dream's fading! I look at her. I told her, I love you! I remember seeing her smile, her big, beautiful smile...... I open my eyes. I woke up.
I woke up to a house that I shouldn't have. A house that our dad should still be living in. We should still see him, hear his voice, his jokes. Feel his warmth and love for us. But no longer can.
I woke up to a house that my sister never came home to. That I never got to hear me say, I love you! To hear her say it back.
I woke up from a dream to a nightmare that never seems to end. Only to hope and hope again to see them in my dreams one more time.
We miss you, Dad and Lisa!!!
We love you!!!
Love you forever,
Elliott
Mum, it's me. I'm still here.
"I know it's hard to believe sometimes or understand in the way I try to show you, but I'm still me. I hear you talk to me several times a day. When you hear nothing back, or you say I don't answer, that doesn't mean I'm not right there next to you, smiling. I smile because I know things you won't know until the day I reach my hands out to you and we're together again in a more familiar way."
"In the meantime, I will keep trying to show you I'm okay and still around. If a friend or relative calls to tell you they got a sign or had a dream of me, please know that I tried to reach you first but the line was busy, or full of pain. When you quieten your mind and learn to clear the clutter, I can get through better."
"Tell my brother to live for me, and do things to make me proud. If they don't want to talk about me, it's just that the pain is too much to bare so they bury it to let everyone in the family grieve in their own way. Try to laugh again and get out of the house. When you can do that, it sends waves of love through my being. Let go of unwanted and useless guilt, anger, and fear. I can't break through those."
"Here's how I let you know I'm not dead, just different:
"I'm the butterfly that dances around you as you walk. I make rainbows even when there isn't any rain. I made the blue dragonfly land on you as you thought of me. The little bird that sat perched outside your kitchen window and then swooped down as you stood on the patio~that was me, mom."
"I keep making my song and you know it's me. I stand beside your bed and brush my hand against your face. I sent a text or phone message after I passed- yup, I'm amazing. I can do things you can't wrap your brain around."
"You saw my face in someone else- it's called transfiguration. I was the young woman who looked at you in the store. The nurse, who waited on you, had my name. A hug from a stranger, yup, that was me."
"Mom, you taught me so much. I didn't get the chance to thank you so I'm doing it now. It's never too late to say I love you. Hug everyone for me and do things that are out of character for you. The best gift you can give me is that you will promise to live for me and I will live through you.....you will see me again one day, but until then, LIVE, LAUGH, and celebrate my memory."
"We are so much more than this physical vehicle that drives us around for awhile. Lift your head up to the skies, mom. I'm there with my arms outstretched as always, waiting to hug you and say, " Hi, Mom. "
" I'm not dead, I'm just different."
I LOVE YOU, LARYSSA. I MISS YOU. AND SOME DAY I WILL SEE YOU AND HUG YOU, AGAIN.
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Perseid Meteor Shower
August 11 and 12th are almost here. It will be 5 months that you have been gone. The Perseid Showers will be here. We will remember you on those nights as we watch for them. I know that you will be with me. I remember when you were a little girl, your dad and I and your sister would go up to Fisk Knob at midnight and stay there and watch the shooting stars. We wouldn't get home until 3 in the morning. And as you got older, I could always count on you to be the one who would say, "Are we watching the meteor shower tonight?" The one time we laid out on top of my car, you and I and we watched an electrical storm in a cloud far away. And as the night slowly rolled in the meteor showers started. We had a huge one fly close, right over us, so close that we could see the colors in the fireball. You were 13 at the time. You always loved watching for them.I Love you, Laryssa. And I miss you. And as I watch the meteor showers this time around, one might just be you soaring through the night sky popping in to say "Hi." I know you will be the brightest one. Miss you so, so much.
Damn the things we can not change. I talk to you... I feel you hear me... They are sending Grumpy Cat your way...maybe he will finally smile when he sees his new care giver! I love you Laryssa.