April 15
April 15
My sweet Lucas,
Today marks 5 years since you left.
FIVE. YEARS.
60 months.
261 weeks.
1827 days.
43,848 hours.
2,630,880 minutes.
157,852,800 seconds.
That is WAY too long to be away from you, my baby boy.
Every year leading up to this day is excruciating.
The events of that day 5 years ago replay in my mind over and over again. I see every detail. The paramedics. The police officers. The drive to the hospital. The doctor telling me you were gone. You laying there. Having to come home from the hospital without you. Every detail replays in my mind. And then it gets hard to breathe. And then the tears start.
I try to be strong, i really do! But sometimes its just not possible.
I remember when you were 5 years old! The same amount of time that you've been gone..... you were so adorable!!
Can we go back to these days? Can you just come back please? Even for just one day?
I miss you so much my baby boy!
Everyone tells me it will get easier as time passes. Those people lied! It just gets harder and harder without you here.
We're going to celebrate you today.......not that you died....but that you lived! We're going to have your favourite food tonight for dinner (you know.....the one you were always bugging me for!!)
You've had Nonno up there with you for 25 months......i bet you guys are having a blast together! I hope youre still behaving!
Khloe misses you so much! She still tries to keep all the traditions going and still includes you in everything we do! Everything is still all about her Lukie!! You would be SO proud of the person she is becoming!!
Please keep watching over her!
Thank you for the signs you keep sending.me! Keep them coming! I could really use one today......i could really use one of your hugs today.....
I miss you so much my baby boy
I love you so much Lucas
Love , Mom
P.S. CYM!!!!!
#forever19 #19forever
Today marks 5 years since you left.
FIVE. YEARS.
60 months.
261 weeks.
1827 days.
43,848 hours.
2,630,880 minutes.
157,852,800 seconds.
That is WAY too long to be away from you, my baby boy.
Every year leading up to this day is excruciating.
The events of that day 5 years ago replay in my mind over and over again. I see every detail. The paramedics. The police officers. The drive to the hospital. The doctor telling me you were gone. You laying there. Having to come home from the hospital without you. Every detail replays in my mind. And then it gets hard to breathe. And then the tears start.
I try to be strong, i really do! But sometimes its just not possible.
I remember when you were 5 years old! The same amount of time that you've been gone..... you were so adorable!!
Can we go back to these days? Can you just come back please? Even for just one day?
I miss you so much my baby boy!
Everyone tells me it will get easier as time passes. Those people lied! It just gets harder and harder without you here.
We're going to celebrate you today.......not that you died....but that you lived! We're going to have your favourite food tonight for dinner (you know.....the one you were always bugging me for!!)
You've had Nonno up there with you for 25 months......i bet you guys are having a blast together! I hope youre still behaving!
Khloe misses you so much! She still tries to keep all the traditions going and still includes you in everything we do! Everything is still all about her Lukie!! You would be SO proud of the person she is becoming!!
Please keep watching over her!
Thank you for the signs you keep sending.me! Keep them coming! I could really use one today......i could really use one of your hugs today.....
I miss you so much my baby boy
I love you so much Lucas
Love , Mom
P.S. CYM!!!!!
#forever19 #19forever