Mom,
It's so hard to believe that you crossed over a year ago today. I remember holding your hand and telling you to take Dad's, that I knew you were tired, Cody and I would be ok and that he and Jimmy were waiting for you, and it was ok to go. I'll never forget those last few moments with you.
I think so often about the things you told me and taught me. Sometimes I get upset because I wish I would have paid more attention. Stories passed down from our family generations and I'm not sure I remember the details the way you told me.
I know you know my heart and this is just my head spinning because it's a day every year until I see you again that will always be filled with so much emotion, so much reflection and so many tears.
I love you today as I always did, and always will. I'm grateful that I was holding you as you took dads hand and your last breath. But lady, I miss your face and I miss your grace. You were my mama and my best and greatest friend. I could write a book about the world's most wonderful you....
I love you and I miss you every single day.
I'm not sure if this anniversary of loss is also an anniversary of a rebirth of sorts into enlightenment and elation for you. So I will celebrate your life, your memory and your reconnection with Dad, Jimmy, Gram, Grampa, Patty, Uncle George and everyone you joined in heaven.
It is bittersweet, like "chocolate all the way from Switzerland." (Open Range)
I will try to patient, knowing I'll see you all again. But the void in this illusion is something fierce and my heart is missing pieces without all of you here.
Namaste..... my Mother, Mom, Ma, mentor, teacher, best friend, role model...and the kindest, gentlest, selfless person I've ever known.
I'm so blessed to have had you as my guide for the precious time I did.
♾️ ~ Your little girl.