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This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, matthew james ashby, 33 years old, born on April 20, 1975, and passed away on August 20, 2008. We will remember him forever.
April 30, 2019
April 30, 2019
I would love to post about the little one I've been fostering for the last 1yr and people would know what lies those 2 told x because if they thought the crap they told was true I wouldn't be doing this x they went through all the paperwork for court they have spoken to her lot that were standing for her and they have had a copy of all the court hearing and here we are xxxxxx
April 19, 2019
April 19, 2019
Hello son x getting things sorted for your birthday tomorrow x bbq and hot tub x food and drink x Taylor needs a good chill out bless him x he's still getting shit from what that bitch said about him x u wish they would drop dead x lots of good trusting friends coming round x so watch for the glasses to be raised x i know I've got on with my life and it's fucking great with her not in it x no walking on egg shell x frighten to speak in case it's taken the wrong way x but it would be so much better if you were here x love you son xxxxxx
April 14, 2019
April 14, 2019
Hi babe x Taylor is now working been doing it now 3months x Brandon was talking about you today x we have had a laugh x felt so sorry for him when he was telling me about kids at school that fell out like they do when at that age x they used to say I'm glad your dad's dead x he said let them say it now and I would hit them x he misses you so so much x Taylor misses having you here and misses his sister's x i hate her so much for what she has said and done x but my god when my time comes I'm going to put all the videos all over social media for all to see x social services x schools the lot x I'll show that bastard up for who she really is and him x rant over x I'm playing in the garden as usual x brought a lovely rose for you x god I wish you were here son xxx xxx love and miss you xxxxxxx
February 23, 2019
February 23, 2019
Hello my sweet darling x i don't know why but this morning all I could think about was seeing you at the mortuary at the hospital x i can't get my head round you going x i still can't beleave your gone x i miss you so much x love you forever my little man x God bless you son xxxxxxxxxx
February 6, 2019
February 6, 2019
Hello sweetheart x sorry I've not been on for a while x i just get so upset when I just think about coming on here x god I miss you so much x we had a real good Christmas x the lads were more than spoilt x it was lovely having Brandon here aswell our little unpaid comedian x he's so funny x Taylor no longer call her mom it's always Kelly that's if he ever says anything it's usually if I'm talking about the past before she fell out with and disowned him x it still hurts to know she could turn her back on him x i would never of dreamed of doing that to you to x no matter what grief or trouble i had from you x and I had plenty of that x but I don't know any mother that would disown there child for a bloke x but she's no proper mother x i know I had my faults but I wouldn't of been that selfish x she's dead to me x the girls have suffered x Taylor has more than suffered and still is and I have x but that dosnt bother her as long as she's ok x selfish x nasty x hateful x lying slut x i hope the girls grow up to hate her and they will has they get older and think back on all that's gone on x and I hope they hurt her like she did all us x well that's my moan out the way x nights are getting lighter x still cold x aunt pat was 90 at weekend x she wasn't very good today when I went to see her x Taylor's dog is so funny x you would of loved him x he's off for job interview later x let's hope he gets it x love and miss you my darling son love mother xxx xxxxxxxxxxxx
December 25, 2018
December 25, 2018
Morning babe x merry Christmas x the boys are still in bed x just been having a bit of a cry thinking about you and the girls x you were always my worry x but you were kind x thoughtful x careing x loving x selfless x all the things that evil lying vile mouthed slapper is x what a life those girls must have x but they will know the truth about her later x I've sent for the minutes from the last court case x so they can read them as Well x one day they will turn on her like she did to me and Taylor x i can't wait x I'm gonna make her life hell when I come back to haunt her x lol xx I wish you were here you are missed so much x love you son x mother xxxxxxxxxxxx
December 21, 2018
December 21, 2018
Hi babe x little man here for Christmas x I've been searching for a week for 2 prezzys x if you had been here you would of told me straight away were they were x Minnie the moocher x lol xxx xxx love you son x mother xxxxxxxxxx
December 10, 2018
December 10, 2018
Hi ya babe x well took the lads to see aunt pat again and David Peter and June couldn't beleave how much Brandon looks like you x as you used to call him my mimi me x you would be so proud of him x he's bloody funny x we're Taylor is reserved and withdrawn they are complete opposite x but they bounce off each other x he's here for Christmas x i will do my best not to cry x love you son x mother xxxxxxxxx
December 6, 2018
December 6, 2018
Hi sweetheart x don't have a lot to say except I miss you so much x aunt pat not very good x i love and hate this time of the year x you loved christmas x the decs the prezzys x watching the kids faces x Brandon is coming to us this year for Christmas x him and Taylor talk about you a lot x and the girls x even Brandon says how much Taylor misses them as he talks to Brandon about how he feels x i won't say to much to me in case I get upset x so pleased he has him to talk to x well you can imagine with all that money I have they have been spoilt rotton and they understand that when it's gone it's gone and we don't care x but it's not been waisted x i wish you were here to spoil as well x love you son and miss you so so much x love mother xxxxxxxxxxxx
November 2, 2018
November 2, 2018
Hello babe x aunt pat couldn't get over how much Brandon looks like you x she is still upset about being in the care home x it's lovely so much nicer than her flat x well the lads have spent a fortune on clothes for Xmas x so all I've got to get is a few stocking fillers x got to pop and get pixie some fireworks x Brandon can remember the guy you did the last bonfire night we had together x you had dressed it in some of my old clothes and on its head you had wrote Kelly x and danced round while it burnt x and he remembers it all x miss you so much son x it hurts so much you not being here x love you x love mother xxxxxxxxx
October 3, 2018
October 3, 2018
Well I'm trying to get off your site and it just keeps coming back on x bless you darling xxxxxxxx
October 3, 2018
October 3, 2018
Well I've just pressed a button to play a game and your tribute site came up instead x very strange x i hope this is your way of saying your with me x as I've just been crying and talking about you to kev xxxxxxxx love you my darling son xxxxxxxxx
October 1, 2018
October 1, 2018
Hi sweetheart been a bit of a shit few days x Taylor asked me to think about getting rid of the girls things x he finds it upsetting x so we took the beds down x and I've cleared draws and wardrobe out x my god the amount of clothes x well I hope there going to go to someone that can do with them x Taylor has had new carpet x bed x and furniture Brandon loves it x bless him he's just like you x he's here every min he can x helps his nan x nothings to much for him x Taylor's dog is getting big now x you would love him x poor millies arthritis is getting worse x poor bugger x sat thinking about the girls x and they will know the truth when there older Brandon and Taylor will make sure of that x i still can't beleave how she could of told lies like that about her own family x she is sick in the head x but the truth will be told and everyone that listened to her lies will know the truth x all because she wants to be with a twat like him fuck her kids they don't matter as I will prove with the texts and videos that Charlie sent me x i will put them on social media for all to see what a bitch she is to those girls x bless them x why she stops with him is just selfish x he dosnt love her x oh well I'll have the last laugh x i do wish you were still here x miss you so much x love you always and forever x mother xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
September 27, 2018
September 27, 2018
Hello my sweet darling x i miss you so so much x i love and miss you love all ways and forever xxxxxx
August 20, 2018
August 20, 2018
Hello my darling x well 10yrs x still dosnt feel that long babe x apart from not seeing you it dosnt feel like it ever happened x to say I miss you is an understatement x what o would give for you to still be with me x Taylor and Brandon x poor Taylor got beat up the other night by a lad on a motor bike still to do with what that bitch told people x she's got a lot to answer for x she won't remember what today's date is x because it's not about her x i hope she rots in hell x well son I know Mandy will be remembering you x she never forgets bless her x even with all her things going on with her health and the youngest suffering x she's got a heart of gold x oh god I love and miss you so very much x but I don't need to tell you this you know x love you son xxx xxx  xxx  xxxxxx
August 9, 2018
August 9, 2018
Hi my dear son x poor millies arthritis is getting worse x it's such a shame x but I just can't bring myself to have her put to sleep x i know I'm being selfish but the thought of doing it makes me feel so bad x i just think of the day you took me to see her and that was it she came home with us x and she has been a big part of our family since x i know if you were here you would tell me I was being selfish x i just don't want her to go she's another part of you going x aunt pat is doing ok but her memoir getting bad x she hates the home x i do feel sorry for her x me Brandon and Taylor were talking about it being 10yrs this month x it's great to hear him talk about you and his memories of you x love and miss you my darling dear son xxxxxxxxxxx
July 17, 2018
July 17, 2018
Hi my darling x all done at aunt pats x off to visit her in a bit x she likes to talk about you and how you looked after Patrick x I'm so proud of the way the family talk about you x God I miss you so much x love and miss you my dear son xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxx
June 29, 2018
June 29, 2018
Hi ya darling x nearly finished clearing out aunt pats x feel so sorry for her x well new car coming today x could of done with you yesterday couldn't walk x hands and feet were killing me x poor Taylor didn't know what to do to help x love you babe x miss you so much xxxxxx
June 8, 2018
June 8, 2018
Hi babe x poor Taylor's head is still a mess from all that's gone on x he has finally realised he dose need to see someone x he's so alone he said he still wants to kill himself x i keep telling him it's not his fault all this happened x such a shame x she is so evil doing this to him x love you xxxxx
June 3, 2018
June 3, 2018
Hi my dear son x took aunt pat to her old place yesterday to pick some bits up x but she wants to take everything x but she hasn't the room now x she keeps talking about when you were looking after Patrick x and what a great job you did x the nursing home is oppersite Patrick's flat x i know I say it every time I come on here but I miss you so so much x love you son xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
May 25, 2018
May 25, 2018
Hello my dear son x can't stop thinking about you again x thinking of all the crap we have all gone through because of that mad bitch x you were right we you asked if she had 3x6 on her head x you obviously saw what I didn't want to x I've been looking of photos of her when she was a baby she was so pretty x i loved her so much x and to see her now the evil has turned her ugly x she's your typical council drug slag scum x and they arnt just my words they have also been said by people that she think are friends x anyway enough of her for now x Taylor's dog is learning well x he's so chuffed he's got him sitting and giving his paw x he needed him xxx xxx mother xxx love you xxxx
May 19, 2018
May 19, 2018
Hi my dear son x can't stop thinking about you this morning x Taylor saw her him and his sister's the other night x such a shame he hid from them so them two didn't see him x i can't beleave he hates her so much that he hides rather than let her see him x I'll never understand why she let him down x it hurts him so much to think she put that bastard before him x but that's her all over being selfish as usual because it's got to be all about her x no matter who gets hurt along the way x i would of done anything and did for her and the girls and she just used me and took me for a twat x oh well let the haunting begin x now nobody knows this sight is up and running again x I'm going to put the pictures and texts and videos Charlie sent me x but can't wait to put them on Facebook x love and miss you my darling xxxxxxxx
May 11, 2018
May 11, 2018
Hello darling x aunty pat is going into a nursing home x she's going to have a look at it today x she was talking about you yesterday with such love x she never mentions the bitch x miss you babe x love mother xxxxxxxxxx
April 30, 2018
April 30, 2018
Hi babe x been a bit upset last few days x Millie not very good her back legs are going x and Taylor found a large lump on her back x she was at the vets last week for some pain killer for her legs x now she's got to go again and I'm worried its something bad x bless her she's got a real fatty wish you were with us x Taylor misses you very much xxxxxx
April 28, 2018
April 28, 2018
Hi son x just listening to some songs that we used to listen to x still laugh when I hear spew by m and m x sat thinking of all the lies she has told people about you x Brandon x Taylor and me x but people will see the truth when I put the texts and videos x andvthe police report of what he did to taylor x on social media then those with any sense will see the evil bitch for what she really is x and him x i bet the hunts don't realise that she said that ragen was said to have been seen having sex with Taylor on his bed x that's how sick she is x Charlotte must be fuming with her x i hope you make her life a misery the way she has made ours x i know I will x another rant over x god I miss you so much x love you so much son x mother xxxxx
April 24, 2018
April 24, 2018
Hello my dear son x well Taylor's dog is helping him gain some confidence x thank God x the girls swings were taken down yesterday x had a good cry x another piece of our memories gone x miss them so much x trying a new infusion tomorrow x drugs and sharps box were delived today x i really wish you were still here x to talk to cry with x Taylor and Brandon could do with you as well x love you x love mother xxxxxxx
April 20, 2018
April 20, 2018
Well your birthday today my dear son x 43yrs x no need to go on you know how much I love and miss you so much x forever in my heart xxxxxxxxxxx
April 19, 2018
April 19, 2018
Hi babe x Taylor came in not long ago x real upset and crying x he had seen Charlie loo x felt so sorry for him x he couldn't beleave how much she had grown x well its your birthday day tomorrow x can't beleave how the time has gone x miss you so so very much son x love you xxxxxxx
April 13, 2018
April 13, 2018
Hi son its been a while since ive been on here x i shut it down for a while x well she has really showed what a nasty piece of work she actually is x shes an evil nasty piece x narcissistic manipulating compulsive lier x i hope she gets found out xyou must be real gutted by what she has done and said and the way she has treated Taylor x poor kid is still having counciling x he misses his sister's as do I x she has hurt him so much he hates her x I've put all paperwork for the girls to read for themselves x there poor heads must be shot x Brandon is doing fine x him and Taylor will be sorted when I'm with you aunt pat has left me a good amount x I'll get on to removing anything she has wrote on here and pictures x so now the sight has been down for a while nobody will bother looking x i never thought she could be so selfish and hatefull I know she is good at lieing x but she has gone above and behond x Charlie sent me some videos my god there going on Facebook and all the texts she sent and everyone that has judged and thought she was little miss perfect can see and read for themselves what a lier and hateful person she really is x even Charlie text that she dosnt have time for them except for herself and him and the boy x i never thought I would ever say that I hated one of my kids but I hate her x well that's my moan out the way x do me a favour haunt the bitch I certainly will and with a vengeance x miss you so much son I tell you they took the wrong one its you that should be here x love you Matthew xxxxxxxx love mother xxxxxx
September 15, 2015
September 15, 2015
Hello babe x things ate going well x little man has been over loads x him an Taylor are so close x there so funny together x Taylor is having a party for his 16th x just got to sort a room x Holliday's are booked for next yr x wish you were here to come with us x well all I can say son is u love you and miss you so very much x I'm so glad I've got this sight to write on its like your sitting here listening xx god loads of pictures to put on but I'm going to wait till I get time to sit and get the site sorted x god bless you son xxxxxxxxxxxxx
August 30, 2015
August 30, 2015
Hi son x me an Taylor whent out for a meal on Friday with peter x David and Josie x aunt pat x June x sahra an the girls x they couldn't believe how tall Taylor was x Josie asked him for a kiss and aunt pat but he went shy x but I heard June say this is how you get one x an stood by him an said something about his phone an then grabbed him an munched him x he started to laugh an said I should be used to you getting me like that x it was a lovely afternoon x we all enjoyed it x were off to see aunt pat tomotomorro x the lads get on great with you know who x got miss coming over tomorrow for the day x brought her a nice cot an bedding x well that's it for now apart from I love and miss you so very very much x love mother xxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxx
August 24, 2015
August 24, 2015
Hello son x well I can now sit down and sort this site out xx I am happier now than I have been for a long time x being treated really good x celebrated last week with good company who said that we should and they raised a glass for you x they remembered you with great fondness x we had a good laugh about the funny things you got up to x and how you made me laugh x it was nice to laugh instead of crying I did enough of that in the day x I miss and love you so very very much xxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxx mother xxxxxxxxxxxxx
August 20, 2015
August 20, 2015
Hi my dearest son x can't believe its 7 yrs since I last saw you x me an Brandon were talking about you last night and how we miss you x he's just like you x he can't do enough for me x oh babe I wish to god it hadn't been you x miss you so so much x love for ever and always xxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxx mother xxxxxxxxxxxxx
August 11, 2015
August 11, 2015
Hi ya son x feeling really good at the min x god I do miss you xxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxx
August 5, 2015
August 5, 2015
Hey up son x things are good x had new car you would be amazed at me x who would of thought that I could save and buy a car £3,700 did well x saving now for 2holls abroad next year x but then I'm not spending silly money anymore x god I wish you were still here x little man been over few times since he broke up x so funny x kev the gardener loves it when he's here x still seeing my mate xxx he talks about you with so much fondness an remembers how thoughtful an caring you were x and how funny your sense of hummer was x I love and miss you so very much son xxxxxxxxxxxxx
July 21, 2015
July 21, 2015
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July 7, 2015
July 7, 2015
Hi son x your garden is looking beautiful x your roses have come out the best ever x will put some photos of them on here x got to get round to getting this sorted so I can remove the crap x love and miss you so much x mother Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
July 5, 2015
July 5, 2015
Hi son x it's been a bit busy here x but all done now x Taylor is doing bbq later x Brandon has just come back off holidays and his freckles are out just like yours used to x so going to sit back and relax while Taylor cooks an Brandon no doubt will be in the pool x love and miss you so much Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
June 29, 2015
June 29, 2015
Hi son x sitting in the back garden yesterday having a cuppa x and out of nowhere a bubble landed x I know it was you x the gardener was amazed x you would of got on with him x he's got a brilliant sense of humour x he thinks Brandon is brilliant x how he's Married with 3 kids x the garden is looking great x had to explain about things an how they can just happen x ie feathers x Robins x butterfly's etc x he was fascinated by it all x love and miss you so very much Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx mother Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
June 22, 2015
June 22, 2015
Hi ya son x was listening to that song you sorted out by Eminem x that you said sumed up? makes me smile x but bad in another way to think that's how they made you feel x but it was there own fault for treating you like they did x love and miss you so much x mother Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
June 21, 2015
June 21, 2015
Hi son x happy fathers day x wish you were here to enjoy it x wish you were here full stop x miss you so much x love you son Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
June 17, 2015
June 17, 2015
Hi son x not much going on at the min x I'm still trying to get this site sorted so I can remove the picture x hopefully be able to do It by the weekend x I shall be glad to see it gone and for all they say I know you will be to x it's a disgrace x but there we go x we knew it would happen x been having a good catch up with Gary over the last few weeks x can't start to tell you what he thinks or Ashby x at least there's one consolation x you can't get the blame x love you loads x miss you so much x love mother Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
May 30, 2015
May 30, 2015
Hi son x have been sitting here thinking about the years that have gone x it has amazed me how people can be so hateful x with there back stabbing x there compulsive lieing x there hurtful words x there deception x why do people find pleasure in the downfall of others x this is a cruel world x and it's even crueler with out you x love you sweetheart Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx miss you Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
May 25, 2015
May 25, 2015
Hello son x things are good x we're doing well x wish you were here give me a hug x to talk to you x l know I talk to you every day and on here x but it's not the same as listening to you give your opinions x and advice x I bet you're fuming with all this again x but you know what you were right x found my cd that you did for me the last time x and I have to laugh at some of the songs you put on it x it shows how much she hurt you as well as me x and why you were glad to go an live over Birmingham x Brandon still makes us laugh with his mimicking of people x he's got one down to a t x love you sweetheart x miss you so so much x love mother Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
May 6, 2015
May 6, 2015
Hello my darling son x things are good x can't wait to get holiday booked x need some sunshine x my heart is still aching x miss you so much it still hurts x there is no justice in this world or you would still be here x got to go now x Lisa wants a brew and I can't see to put any more x God bless you son x love mother xxxxxxxxxx
April 21, 2015
April 21, 2015
What a fantastic surprise yesterday for you're birthday x mandy coming over x all the beautiful flowers she brought us x and the little men are gorgeous x couldn't of asked for anything better x God bless you son x love and miss you so very much x mother xxxxxxxxxx
April 20, 2015
April 20, 2015
Hello son x well you would of been 40 today x you said you didn't want to want to be here at that age x I wanted you to x but as usual you got your own way x none of your doing x but I know that you are in a beautiful and better place x and your out of the tournament that you were in living in this life x even though it kills me to say it x God bless you son x miss you so much x love you so much x and miss you more than you or any one will ever know x love mom xxxxxxxxxxxx
April 15, 2015
April 15, 2015
Hi son x well Brandon has been full of it x bless him x he's been doin his impersonations of people x had us in bits x just like he did on holiday x God I miss you so much x and wish you were here with us x love you so very much with all my heart xxxxxxxxxx
March 26, 2015
March 26, 2015
Hi son x well were gettin there x house is lookin good x kevs comin to lay stair carpet x an hang new bedroom doors x just got to get a new livinroom carpet an everywhere sorted x just holls an car to look forward to x but not in a rush for car x had more infustions they finished yesterday for a few months x well all for now x next wk i can write better an add photoes an take off the site it will def be sorted x love an miss you x mother xxxxxxxxx
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April 20
April 20
Well darling today is your birthday x why did you have to have so many in heaven and not here with us x I miss you more than anyone could ever understand oh babe it's so lonely without you with me x say more later getting to upset xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
March 14
March 14
Hello darling x been decorating again even my cleaner has been helping x trying to get in the garden but the rain keeps getting in the way nothing much else happening x miss you so much son when I'm doing something I think if Matthew was here he would of done by now x love you always and forever son xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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matthews poem that was read at his funeral by paula perkins

October 4, 2010

 

 LONELINESS   

LONELINESS IS A STATE OF MIND

ISOLATION, BOREDOM,ALONE

SAT IN A ROOM ALL ON MY OWN

 

NOTHING TO DO BUT LISTERN TO SILENCE

DEEP IN THOUGHT LOOKING FOR GUIDANCE

YOU LISTERN AND LISTERN, THERE'S NOTHING TO DO

THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN A VOICE BREAKS THROUGH

IT ASKS ME WHAT DO YOU DO

I'M SAT HERE SAT ALONE LOOKING FOR YOU

IF YOU LOOK HARD ENOUGH , YOU MITE SEE ME

BUT STILL YOULL WONDER WHAT I BE

I WAS ALONE ! I LOOK AND I CANT FIND

YOU WONT FIND ME HERE I'M IN YOUR MIND

NOW I HAVE FOUND WHERE I SHOULD BE

AT PEACE AND REST IN HARMONY

 

 

 

                                                    

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