ForeverMissed
This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, Nickocie Allan Reed , born on May 4, 2000 and passed away on January 28, 2001. We will remember him forever.

Nickocie was welcomed into the world by parents Chad and Jamie Reed. He was also joined in heaven by his father just a few short years after his passing.

Nickocie was a happy baby, his smile was contagious. His laugh was the sweetest sound. His nickname was KocieBug, Kocie for short. This precious little boy may have only been with us for 8 months, (5 days shy of 9 months) but he was loved by many and found a place in many hearts.

KocieBug will always be remembered by his loved ones, family and friends. Though his time here with us was not long, not near long enough. Those 8, almost 9 months were filled with love, laughter and cherished memories. 

Posted by Jamie Reed on June 8, 2022
You would be 22 years old now. I can't help but wonder and image what you would be doing now. You would be grown. Would you have chose to go to college or would you be working ? Maybe even both. Would you be living out on your own or home with me still ? You would be driving. Would you have preferred cars or trucks ? I wonder if you would be into racing, fishing, sports. What your hobbies and interests would be. I imagine you and your brother hanging out, spending your free time together. I'm sure the two of you would have been close. I wonder if you would have a serious girlfriend, I'm sure you probably would.
Wondering and trying to imagine what you would be like, what your life would be like is so bittersweet. Picturing you as my own mental image of what you would look like, trying to put together my own vision of what you would have grown to be and what you would be like as a grown man. Those kind of things make me smile just thinking of what it would be like if you were her. Until reality sets in and I realize that it's all just visions and dreams in my head. They are dreams that disappear when I open my eyes that can never come true. It is my mind drifting off to a world that doesn't exist, a world with you here with me. A world where you got to become a toddler and learn to walk. A world that I got to send you off to your first day of school. You got to make friends, go to dances, have your first date, graduate high school. A world that will only ever exist in my dreams, in my mind. When the visions start to fade and the real world becomes clear again, when reality sets in... That's when my heart breaks all over again. It breaks not only for what I lost and long for every single day, but for all the things that you never had the chance to do, to experience, to see, to learn. Even though the reality hurts, I will forever wonder and imagine. Because even if only for a moment, in my visions, in my mind, you are with me.
I miss you so much my sweet Angel Baby I love you Nickocie Allan Reed
Posted by Jamie Reed on February 2, 2022
It has been 21 years since I've held you in my arms, kissed your little cheeks, tucked you safely in at night. 21 years of missing you every single day. The years keep passing by but my heart still aches for you the same as the day I lost you. The emptiness I feel is a void that is impossible to fill. I can remember your smile, your laugh and the sound of you saying "Mama" like it was only yesterday. Some days it feels like only yesterday I held you close to me, yet other days it feels like it has been so long, (which in reality it has been). I still dream of you and imagine all of the things you should have had the chance to do throughout your life. I wonder what you would be like now that you would be grown. You would turning 22 this year. It still breaks my heart that you will always be my baby, forever 8 months old (just 5 days shy of 9 months). The many things that you never had the chance to to do, never got to see or experience in life. It feels like I lost you before you had the chance to live. Though I will never understand why you had to leave us so soon, why you couldn't stay here with me. I believe that God had bigger plans for you. I believe that you were an angel all along. What little time I got to spend with you, that almost 9 months, I will forever cherish that time. I will carry each memory with you until the end of time. I've learned that the pain will never go away, but I've learned how to live with it. So until the day that we are together once more I will carry you on my heart my sweet little angel baby. I know that you are safe in heaven with your Daddy while I'm here with your brother.
I love you so much KocieBug

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Posted by Jamie Reed on June 8, 2022
You would be 22 years old now. I can't help but wonder and image what you would be doing now. You would be grown. Would you have chose to go to college or would you be working ? Maybe even both. Would you be living out on your own or home with me still ? You would be driving. Would you have preferred cars or trucks ? I wonder if you would be into racing, fishing, sports. What your hobbies and interests would be. I imagine you and your brother hanging out, spending your free time together. I'm sure the two of you would have been close. I wonder if you would have a serious girlfriend, I'm sure you probably would.
Wondering and trying to imagine what you would be like, what your life would be like is so bittersweet. Picturing you as my own mental image of what you would look like, trying to put together my own vision of what you would have grown to be and what you would be like as a grown man. Those kind of things make me smile just thinking of what it would be like if you were her. Until reality sets in and I realize that it's all just visions and dreams in my head. They are dreams that disappear when I open my eyes that can never come true. It is my mind drifting off to a world that doesn't exist, a world with you here with me. A world where you got to become a toddler and learn to walk. A world that I got to send you off to your first day of school. You got to make friends, go to dances, have your first date, graduate high school. A world that will only ever exist in my dreams, in my mind. When the visions start to fade and the real world becomes clear again, when reality sets in... That's when my heart breaks all over again. It breaks not only for what I lost and long for every single day, but for all the things that you never had the chance to do, to experience, to see, to learn. Even though the reality hurts, I will forever wonder and imagine. Because even if only for a moment, in my visions, in my mind, you are with me.
I miss you so much my sweet Angel Baby I love you Nickocie Allan Reed
Posted by Jamie Reed on February 2, 2022
It has been 21 years since I've held you in my arms, kissed your little cheeks, tucked you safely in at night. 21 years of missing you every single day. The years keep passing by but my heart still aches for you the same as the day I lost you. The emptiness I feel is a void that is impossible to fill. I can remember your smile, your laugh and the sound of you saying "Mama" like it was only yesterday. Some days it feels like only yesterday I held you close to me, yet other days it feels like it has been so long, (which in reality it has been). I still dream of you and imagine all of the things you should have had the chance to do throughout your life. I wonder what you would be like now that you would be grown. You would turning 22 this year. It still breaks my heart that you will always be my baby, forever 8 months old (just 5 days shy of 9 months). The many things that you never had the chance to to do, never got to see or experience in life. It feels like I lost you before you had the chance to live. Though I will never understand why you had to leave us so soon, why you couldn't stay here with me. I believe that God had bigger plans for you. I believe that you were an angel all along. What little time I got to spend with you, that almost 9 months, I will forever cherish that time. I will carry each memory with you until the end of time. I've learned that the pain will never go away, but I've learned how to live with it. So until the day that we are together once more I will carry you on my heart my sweet little angel baby. I know that you are safe in heaven with your Daddy while I'm here with your brother.
I love you so much KocieBug
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My Sweet AngelBaby

When I found out I was pregnant I was esctatic. I was The first time I heard his heartbeat, (and every time after) was music to my ears ! Every time I felt him move and kick was the most incredible feeling I'd ever felt. Seven months into my pregnancy I found out that I was having a baby boy ! I was head over heels in love from the moment I knew he was growing inside my belly. On May 4th 2000, at 2:32p.m. I met my sweet baby boy. Words cannot describe the happiness or the love that I felt at that moment. The love between mother and child is a different love, a love like no other. I never knew love like this existed until they placed him in my arms. I spent nine months loving this tiny being growing inside me, falling more in love each passing day. The moment I finally met him I was overwhelmed with the incredible love, the love between Mother and Child. 

The months we shared together were like a dream. Being his Mommy was the best feeling I'd ever felt. I found out I was expecting Nickocie's brother when Nickocie was only a few months old. I was so excited. Brothers only about a year apart in age. They were destined to be best friends. I never imagined they would never get a chance to meet each other. I never imagined that my hopes and dreams of having two little boys close in age, growing up together as not only brothers but also best friends would be just dreams and images of what could have been. Images of what was supposed to be. I never imagined that my youngest son would grow up only seeing pictures and hearing stories of his big brother. No parent ever imagines losing their baby. In the blink of an eye hopes, dreams and part of your heart can be shattered, gone. 

It has been 17 years since my beautiful baby boy went to heaven. 17 years since he became an angel. Like any parent that loses a child, we're never the same after such a loss. I still miss him and think about him every single day. I still imagine what life would be like if he were here with us. I lay awake at night trying to picture what he would look like now. He would be 18 years old. I still cry and grieve. I always will. I spend hours thinking about all of the things in life he never got to do, experience, things he had yet to see and learn. 

Though the pain of losing a child is unbearable. Though a piece of my heart, a piece of me went with him when he left this life. I believe that he was an angel all along. I know that God had a different plan for him. I tried to imagine a heaven without babies, that wouldn't feel like heaven to me. I know my sweet AngelBaby is watching over me. I know we'll be together again when God is ready to call me home. Though my heart aches for my precious KocieBug, I know he has his halo and wings and is safe in heaven. Here on Earth he learned to crawl but I know up in heaven he learned to fly

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Shared by Jamie Reed on March 11, 2019

When Nickocie came home from the hospital he only woke up twice throughout the night to eat. By two weeks old he was sleeping from around 10pm until around 7am. He was such a calm pleasant baby from day one.

Nickocie came home from the hospital holding his head up pretty well. He was always wanting to look around and see what was going on 

Around 2 1/2 months Nickocie started to roll from back to belly. He wasn't wasting any time reaching milestones. By 6 months he was rolling completely over.

Nickocie said his first word at about 6 months old. Of course it was "DaDa". "MaMa" wasn't far behind. He also learned to say "Bye" ("Ba") . 7-8 months, When we would get company and they'd leave he would wave and say "Ba".

At around 6 1/2 months old Nickocie started to army crawl. By 7 months old he was crawling everywhere.

Right around 7 1/2 months Nickocie began pulling himself up and standing along the furniture. He was a little wobbly but so determined.

8 months old and Nickocie realized he could walk along the furniture. For such a little boy he had determination, and learned things so quickly.

8 months (5 days shy of 9 months), Nickocie took his very first and only three steps. Unfortunately he fell and hit his head and ended up with a goose egg on his forehead. But I think my baby wanted Mommy to see her biggie boy walk before he learned to fly.

He was teething but his first tooth never came fully through. I think he was making up for the teeth but learning everything else early. His hair was coming in perfectly, such a beautiful blondish color. His eyes stayed the prettiest color of blue. 

These memories, each milestone, I cherish like priceless treasure. When I long for the things he never got to learn or do I remember each little milestone, each little things he did learn and do. I try to be grateful for the moments I did get to cherish.