In Memory Of My Sister Nicola

22 years since I lost my wee sister, funny and gorgeous, oh how I miss her.

Grief like an ocean we all must dive in, No matter your class or location or sin.

Nobody knows when how or why, but we'll all deal with loss and it's okay to cry.

It'll get easier in time people will say, but it doesn't, it won't, it just hurts more each day.

We will learn to cope as time moves on, sometimes you'll fear the reality of it all.

There's no shame in asking for help if you need it, to get out of the darkness and climb out that deep pitt.

Dealing with grief is hard..it's really no fun, but when all's said and done, and the race has been run.. be grateful you're still here to see the beautiful rising sun.

its 14yrs on 2nd october 2013, since we lost our Nicola, it just dose'nt seem that long. It only seems like yesterday i used to play with our Nicola,Julie and Garry i used to play the old record player and dance with them, Nicola's favourite record was the big bopper singing chantilly lace she loved it, i had to put her up over ma back side to side and through ma legs she used to go into fits of laughing,it was alright doing this with nicola and julie they were as light as feathers, but when it came to our Garry it was like lifting ten bags of tatties lol.The other thing that sticks in ma mind was when nicola sang the titanic theme tune to me,she was so good at it and that was with no music, i had tears in my eyes she went on to sing it every time she went to the Karaoke nights and everybody said she was great at it.  Last thing that comes to my mind is when my mum and i was showing nicola some old pictures and we could see her brows go down as she looked at the black and white pictures then looked across the page at the coloured ones and said gran what was it like when you's lived in the black and white days well what could we say lol, we could'nt move for laughing I could go on and on with the good time i shared with our nicola wish she was still here....R.I.P Nicola will always miss you and love you....from aunty Janeto.xx