Happy 43rd Birthday in heaven Nicole. Please watch over all of us on earth.

Merry Christmas Sweet Girl....Heaven is blessed to have you. Mommy misses you everyday

Sweet Angel, Mommy has had you on her mind more than normal. I pray to you and God often to help getting me better. I am at a point I feel it is a loss cause. Emotionally it is taking a toll on Mommy. Send me healing prays. Mommy loves you as always from her to the Moon and back.

Mommy loves you Sweet Angel.

Good morning sweet Angel, Mommy was so happy to visit your gravestone on Aug 30. Brought you lovely signs hope it stays there a while.
It was bittersweet because it was so nice to come and sit a bit. But bittersweet because it will be the last time Mommy travels to Connecticut. My home is in Florida with your wonderful Step Daddy Peter. He would of loved you.
But you are not in the grown you are where you have been all these years with the Lord and your family. I love you honey for ever and a day.

Happy Independence Day Honey.

Hi to my sister. Yesterday was poppy's 91st birthday. I hope you, poppy and meme had a birthday party that was a blast. I can picture the 3 of you all the time just being together. Meme and poppy get there time with you now. It is their special time with you. I know today you become an angel and you are always by my side. Love you, My Big Sister.

Happy Birthday Nicole. Hard to believe your with the lord this long.. but again you with the lord since the day of conception. I love you honey.

Hello Sweet Angel today is 2 yrs that you have Poppy with you. It warms my heart. So many have passed only Aunt Marylou is left. Protect her. She keeps your picture in her music box and looks at you often. Momma loves you.

I know I already left a message to you, but that message was on facebook, now I just wanted to talk just to you. from your little sister to her older sister. I just read what mommy said to you and I never realized how much your life truly affected our family. I never thought mom's thoughts really affected me and steph and mom too. Nicole, I hope a part of you can see these messages or your angel being can feel our love, on today, on your 42nd heavenly birthday. You will be on my mind even more today, but in a good way. I always feel your love around me today and every day. It's weird- I never met you, but I can feel your presence around me. I wonder what you look like if you would have made it and we didn't lose you. I know you would be my best friend. Happy Birthday Nicole. I love you more than words can express. Love you sister.

Happy 42nd Heavenly Birthday to my older sister Nicole. my only regret is not getting the chance to meet you. You only lived 6 weeks in this world, but your short life meant so much to so many people. You influenced so many people and I am included in that category. I hope you are looking down on me and are proud- because you are always on my mind and even though you are not here you are always influencing me in my heart and put a smile in my face. I try to make you proud. Happy birthday Nicole. I love you.

It is hard to believe Sweet Angel that tomorrow April 7, 2023, will be 42 years that I gave birth to you. Our first-Born Daughter. So much splendor in the anticipation of your birth. A beautiful thing turned in to heart break that will never leave my heart. I love your little sisters, but it is different with you. I got to love them. I only had you for 6 weeks. I knew the Lord need my special angel in Heaven. I always wonder if you had not passed if your sister's childhood would have been better. I know you protect me during those very dark days. I always Know you protected all of us on earth. Your sisters, Meme & Poppy all of them. I wait in wonders what will happen when Mommy passes away. Will you great me, Will you know who I am, what will you look like. I know our shell is gone but there is something very special waiting for me when I come to heaven. Nicole, I love you so much. Tears are pouring down my cheeks not but not out of sadness. Out of the love God had for me loaning you to Mom and Dad for 45 days. People think it is sad, but it is not. I know you are safe and at rest. Mommy will forever Love you. 42 years later not one day that I don't think or talk to you. Every Single Day. Nicole thank you for being my daughter.I also know you would not want me to hurt over what your Godmother did. I try to find forgiveness but it is not here yet. Kiss Meme and Poppy for me. Also my friend Christina touch her with my love.

Nicole Mommy wanted to say hello to the sweet angel that God gave us. You are in my heart forever. I think losing you all those years ago changed me. Your sister's suffered from that. I loved you so much that I feel I held back some of my love for your sisters...fear of getting hurt again. They are my heart, but I know I would have been a better Mommy if I did not lose you Sweetheart. Watch over the family. Today is MeMe birthday All of you together. Mommy loves you so much.

Sweet Nicole tomorrow is February 8 your Meme birthday. I always pray that all we have been taught is true. You are in paradise and at peace. We had such a short time. What a beautiful gift. I was so luck y to have a chance to hold , kiss, feed and love you for 45 beautiful day. I knew then and I know the same now. God wanted us to meet our baby girl. Knowing it was temporary God had a much bigger job for you. You were special one. Give MeMe a big kiss from me . We will meet again in spiret but in a form that is suppose to make all the pain without you make sense. I love you my Sweet Angel.

Hi big sister. today in 1981 you went to become an angel with our Lord. Know that you are always in my heart. I have a tattoo of a guardian angel and I look at it everyday knowing you are a piece of me. Talk soon Nicole. You life had and has so much meaning that I can not fully express it in words. I love you Nicole Millie

Baby Girl you are on my mind today Poppy's Birthday. I still thank God every day for allowing me to give birth to such a beautiful baby. Even though you were not meant to stay on this earth. God allowed me to love, hug, kiss and adore you for 45 days. You had the strongest heart. My greatest regret is that infant transplants did not start until 1982. I would of loved to believe your strong heart was in another baby's chest. I know God had a really big job for you in heaven. Maybe just to protect us all the time or bigger. Our family boy it needed a lot of protecting.
I love you so much, I talk to you every day. Your sister lives her life through your memories we gave her and of course your name. I will be able to see you again one day. Not sure what form that will be but I know you will know I am your Mommy. Happy 41st Anniversary in heaven my sweet Angel Girl.

happy birthday in Heaven Nicole Millie. you are having a huge birthday party today with meme, poppy, and Grandma Arsenault, and great grandma theresa and so many more family. I hope you are proud of me and I know you are watching out for me. love you sister

Merry Christmas my sweet girl in heaven. So many years have passed. Not one day has passed in 41 yrs that I have not told you how much Mommy loves you. Four of my loved ones are in heaven with you. Meme, Poppy, Uncle Johnny and your Great Grandma Tessie. I am sending love and hugs to you today and always. One day I will see my first born daughter.

Nicole I know you watch over Mommy. I am so sorry that your Godmother made up such lies about you. I gave you all my love and I would of died if you could of stayed.

Good Morning my sweet Angel, As always every single day you are in my heart and thoughts. Some would think and do that I should not talk about you any more. That would be like not speaking your little sisters name.
When people ask how many kids I have sometimes I say two just to avoid the what? But I had three beautiful daughters. I know in my heart that The Lord loans us to this earth. Thank you God for the most cherished 45 days.
Nicole I do not know what heaven is like where it is but I pray you are with your heavenly family. Please kiss Meme and Poppy for me and a big lick from Charlotte to Poppy. He loved our little Charlotte. Sweetie rest in peace. Help me get through the holiday I miss you , Meme, Poppy and Grandma Tessie so much..Love Mommy

Nicole you are with the Lord 40 years tomorrow. So glad your with 3 of your grandparents, and Great grandma and pa on both sides. I will keep your birth and death and never let it go in vain. One day Mommy will be in heaven with all of you. All my love your Mother ...

Hello my sweet Angel. It warms my heart you are now in Heaven with Meme and Poppy and Grandma Annemarie. From what I believe when Poppy came to heaven he was standing near your Meme and holding you. Is it true I pray with ever mean inside of me that it was true. Even your nephew William said you were being held by your Poppy. I wish I knew an artist that could do a drawing of Meme and Poppy holding his sweet Nicole.
Poppy did not talk of you often like Meme and Mommy and sister Rachelle. It was to hard for him just like your Daddy. No more he has you in his arms in eternity until Mommy can hold you herself. Keep visiting in the number 616 I know it is you. Nicole you were with the Lord first guide Meme and Poppy to all the beauiful things in Heaven. Mommy misses you everyday. x0x0x

Thinking of you Baby Girl..You were my first daughter born making me a Mom. Thank you Nicole Mommy loves you ever minute of every day..Love Mommy

I left my birthday wish for our beautiful heavenly baby..I just wanted to post that only two people are true. Mommy and your little sister Rachelle. Leaving tributes all the time. Love and protect her always.

Happy Birthday my sweet angel Nicole. You were born on this day 40 years ago at 8:24 pm. Life was going to change for all of us. I thank the Lord for allowing you to be with us those precious 45 days. Know that almost all of your family loved you, honored the very difficult decisions your Mommy and Daddy had to make. ALWAYS your best interest was first. But I know you know that my angel. Have a Happy Birthday in heaven with our Omighty Lord Jesus Christ.

Nicole, just wanted to post a message to you. Happy Heavenly 40th birthday. Its hard to believe you are 40 and I will be 39 in a few weeks. I wish we could have met. But I will hold you in my heart always. I love your memory and your short life forever. Love your baby sister, rachelle.

Nicole Mommy is so sad today. From the moment I knew we were having a baby. Mommy 21 Daddy 23 babies ourselves. We waited 9 months to meet you. Everything was fine you looked perfect. But that was not the case. Your body would not allow you to stay with us. god loaned you to us 6 beautiful weeks. I loved kissing you button nose, your skin was so soft. You were not perfect extra fingers and tabs on toes...but your my girl I waited so long to see your beauiful face. So precious. God had a plan it was so painful to accept it but we had too. Putting DNR was the hardest thing I have had to do in my entire life. I had many mountains to claim and fell down most. But the one thing that was always perfect in my life was that Haven had my sweet baby. God had bigger things for you earth was not good enough in Gods eyes. Know that I took such good care of myself so you would be born healthy. It was and is heartbreaking that it did not matter. I only did the best for you. Mom and Dad we were so young having a critically ill baby..A baby just waiting to join God. We will see you again. I never did anything to hurt your health and care. The specialist said you would die in about an hour after life support. You were so strong you gave us extra time. In this world there a people that make up stories. I loved you at birth cared to you until death. You and I both know that you were are sunshine. Dad sang it to you everyday..Nicole I love so much . Your best interest was first always. I am sorry that family members on dad side want to hurt me 40 yrs later. I love you sweetie. Can't wait to see you again. Missed out on so much without you. My heart has never healed. KAA Roit in hell.

Baby girl Mommy needs you so much. I wonder if you did not die if would be a different person. I am a loving caring and generous person.. I try so hard to deal with people your sisters mostly your little sister Rae. She cares your name. She is lost inside of herself. Like Meme would say you have to get out of your own way Donna. Sure you know all the stories. Nicole your Meme is there with you. I pray you both can pray for us on earth. I know when the day comes that the Lord calls your Poppy home you and meme will be there for him. That makes me happy. Your Poppy is so unhappy and it breaks my heart.

SInce I visited memes site, because today is her Heaven birthday I thought I would visit your page... I hope you and meme are together everyday and especially today

Nicole today is your Meme;s 86th birthday. Mommy loves you .

Happy New Years 2021 in heaven my sweet Angel. Keep dancing in heaven and one day Mommy will be with again. God needed you more then he thought you should stay on earth. You are one of the special Angels.
I have thought about every single day since you went to heaven. As promised your birth and death will never be in vain. Mommy loves and misses you so much. xoxoxoxoxoxo

Momma just wanted to send you my love in heaven. I love and miss you baby girl.

Nicole I thought of you today like I have everyday since the Lord brought you back home. Take care of Grandma-Meme.
I finally got to come see you last week. Living so far is so hard. I know you are with me and always have been. I wanted to send special prayers to you. Your Poppy has been thru so much. He is so strong a true Warrior. Nicole watch over poppy and help him with the huge transition when he comes home on June 27. Sweetie mommy loves you so much but I miss you more. Your Momma

Happy birthday to my big sister Nicole Millie. Happy 39th birthday in Heaven to my angel. I never met you, but I have always felt a connection with you. I think of you often and hold you very close to my heart. I know you are watching over me every single day and you are there when I need you. EVen thought we never met, I feel you are a piece of my heart. I love you Nicole

Happy Birthday my sweet Angel, Hard to believe I had you 39 yrs ago. You are in my heart every single day. You would be honored Rachelle Nicole carries you in her heart. And treasures that she carries your name. I miss you everyday but know you are at peace.

Nicole please send prayers to help Mommy heal fast.

My sweet angel mommy has you on her mind often. I asked Meme to send me a sign that she is watching over you and that the two of you were reunited...I has so many Cardinals come to me in gifts, napkins, blankets I knew my sweet girl was with her Meme <3
Babe come spring it will be 39 yrs that the lord brought you the most beautiful baby into our lives. There was a big reason he needed you only the most blessed children go to heaven to protect us on earth.

Happy December Sweetheart. JUst had thanksgiving and of course you and Meme were on my mind but again you always are.
Holidays are here and that is so hard. Never knowing if you would of loved the holidays like your family. Expecially Mommy, Meme and your little sister Rachelle.

I wanted to send you a candle to day my sweet angel in heaven. You are never far from my thoughts and forever in my heart. I love you sweetie.

Nicole, you are always in my heart and soul. Even though I never got the chance to meet you- I have your name- so you will always be a part of me. Love your sister, rachelle

Sweetheart I was playing a game and out of the blue it came right to your sight. Maybe you were trying to communicate with me. And how strange because Mommy is coming to Conn in just 3 days. I will be coming to visit you and meme. I miss visiting both of you so much. Mommy loves you sweetie. Always in my heart and never far from my thoughts. xoxoxo <3

Happy Anniversary in Heaven sweetie. Mommy loves you .

Happy Easter to my big sister Nicole. You and Meme spent this special day together. Loving you always

Happy Easter in heaven my sweet Angel. I hope you and your Meme are together. You are never very far from my thoughts. Mommy loves you. Rest in peace sweetheart. Love Mommy

Happy 38th Birthday Nicole,
You have always lived in my heart and always will. Rest in peace my sweet Angel. Mommy misses you every day and always will.
Love you Mommy.

Sending love to my sweet daughter on this day. You are forever in my heart and my thoughts. Mommy loves you and one day I will be able to see you in Gods house.

Baby Girl, Mommy is thinking of you today. Your dad and I married on this day 39 yrs ago. Both mommy and Daddy are happy and in wonderful relationships. I know you had part to do with that. Loving and protecting us from heaven. Certain days or times Mommy has you on her mind and heart then other days. Mommy knows you will be with her on 2-14-2019 when Mommy marries his true love Peter. YOu may be in heaven but I include you in ever life events. Rest in peace my sweet angel.

Hi my older sister. Although we never met, you have influenced my life more than any other person. I have your name as my middle name and that is so special to me.. I hope you and meme are together having fun in Heaven. You have the chance to know each other now, that you never had in life. You lived a short time, but your life touched everybody's heart. I love you Nicole. Love your sister xoxo

Happy Birthday NIcole 36 years old today. May you and Meme be dancing wit the Angel all day. Mommy loves you so much . Sometimes i wish i could bring you home just for a day. But I know you are working hard from heaven protecting us. I love you my sweet Sunshine. Like Daddy use to sing to you " The sunshine song." We don't talk much but i know when he looks up in the sky tonight we both will be wishing our baby girl a happy birthday .

Hello my sweet Angel, Another holiday without you. I feel better knowing you are with your Meme It lightens the heaviness on my heart. I love you always you are the one piece of me that can't heal. Please continue to watch over your sister and mommy and Daddy too.