It is hard to believe Sweet Angel that tomorrow April 7, 2023, will be 42 years that I gave birth to you. Our first-Born Daughter. So much splendor in the anticipation of your birth. A beautiful thing turned in to heart break that will never leave my heart. I love your little sisters, but it is different with you. I got to love them. I only had you for 6 weeks. I knew the Lord need my special angel in Heaven. I always wonder if you had not passed if your sister's childhood would have been better. I know you protect me during those very dark days. I always Know you protected all of us on earth. Your sisters, Meme & Poppy all of them. I wait in wonders what will happen when Mommy passes away. Will you great me, Will you know who I am, what will you look like. I know our shell is gone but there is something very special waiting for me when I come to heaven. Nicole, I love you so much. Tears are pouring down my cheeks not but not out of sadness. Out of the love God had for me loaning you to Mom and Dad for 45 days. People think it is sad, but it is not. I know you are safe and at rest. Mommy will forever Love you. 42 years later not one day that I don't think or talk to you. Every Single Day. Nicole thank you for being my daughter.I also know you would not want me to hurt over what your Godmother did. I try to find forgiveness but it is not here yet. Kiss Meme and Poppy for me. Also my friend Christina touch her with my love.