Today as I was cleaning and I cam upon your breathing medicnines and oxygen tubes.Of course i fell apart. But I want to remember how hard it was for you to breath so that I  can take comfort in knowiing you no longer suffer with that. The only way for you to have comfort was to just sit and do nothing and even then it wa difficult. I know that you hated living this way. Trapped in your body that you know you destroyed with smoking. I want to honor you by taking care of my health. The last few week of your life you kept thinkng that I was smoking and told me that is how you got in the shape you were in. I neverr have smoked cigarettes mama and I never will. I love and miss you so much. 

My Mom was so excited to meet her great grandaughter. When I had flown in from Cali in April to care for Mama the first thing she said to me was " Hey baby!". The seconds was " show me pictures of my beautful great grandchild"! When she got to meet my precious great niece she instantly fell in love.