Really...a decade? No way...it still feels like yesterday. Sometimes I think I have to call you and I don't or can't. It hasn't gotten any easier. I speak of you often and catch myself saying Mema would say this or Mema would do that....you're still a part of my life everyday. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, your favorite holiday....my worst. I know you're watching over us and have been joined my people you care about but I still would rather have you with us...it's not fair. I miss everything about you...even when you would yell at me when I was coloring your hair..I'd dread that day but I would give anything to have it back. I'm so sorry that you suffered a horrible death...you didn't deserve any of it. Thats all I can hope for now is that you're in a better place. You were my bestfriend and you will never be replaced. I miss you more that I can express. I love you more than I can express...its just so difficult. All I can say is thank god for my daughters. We are close and they are good, kind, compassionate, smart, beautiful, generous, caring, funny young ladies. You would be so proud of them. You always told me to be home for my kids and it paid off. I thank you for your guidance in raising them. You didn't have a mom but you would never know that just by the way you raised me. I treasure my relationships with my girls and I thank you for that. I love you..your daughter