Mommy its been 4 years today and I miss u so much. Does this pain ever go away. I've asked myself a thousand times why u left and there are not any answers.  We got walkers senior pics and you would be so proud. Tyler is a junior and such a sweet young man. He would be making u laugh right now. He's graduating next year. I wish I could say I wish you were here but I know that you are. Every time I look in the mirror I see u looking back at me. Sometimes that makes me smile and others it hurts. I love you mommy.  I miss u.