Dear Mama, I've been missing you so much lately. You had your moments but you loved me. You cared for me. You kept me housed, clothed, and fed. I often wonder what life would've been like without the illness. We would have been so close. My son would be sitting across your bed asking your for back scratching. running to you when Mom wasn't being nice, and eating anything you served him, and keeping secrets from me that only Grandma knows. I miss you Mommy. I miss what should've been. But that's okay. I loved you any way you were. Anyway I could have you, I'll take you.