LUM

Today I did something for you. We stopped at a lake to take pictures and I slid down a hill on my booty and stepped out onto a rock that was hanging over the water. I made a memory, as you would say. I am taking time to stop and do something that I normally wouldn't. I am trying to honor you. If you count my tears, you will see how broken I am. I love you. New song. You would have liked it

The dark and stillness of the night is horrible. This isn't getting any easier. Went to Pa Pa's and even surrounded by many people I felt so alone. Every second that ticks on this clock seems like an hour. No emails from you; no calls. No hearing you say "hey Tee, how are you today?" Nothing seems to dull the pain. I would trade places with you. i love you that much.

Gumpy
It just finally struck me that pictures are all we will have from now on. I am so thankful that we have the pictures and beautiful memories, but right now the grief is so overwhelming that nothing can bring any relief or joy. Perhaps, just perhaps, when we find out why you were so suddenly snatched from our lives we can find closure

One month ago today you left us and our hearts were broken. I wish we knew why. I'm still here helping momma and we do what we can for Garry Earl. We lost a sister, mom lost a daughter, but he lost his wife and best friend. My sorrow is so overwhelming I can't even think what his is like. What we wouldn't all give to have you back with us and hear your laugh and give you a hug. I love you!

Hope tonight isn't as bad as last night. Remember how after daddy died you would sit up and watch the western channel and eat chips? Just so you felt closer to him. I want to sit on your swing and feed the deer. Just to be closer to you. The weight of the sadness inside is so heavy. I am wearing your jammies. They are pink. I hate pink, but I love you, so pink it is. I want you back.

I played "our" song, you know "dueling banjos" and I cried and cried and laughed. I can't remember what started us doing that in the first place. I feel robbed that I only got 45 years with you. Mad that I assumed there would be more. Standing beside your grave today, I realized how stupid and wrong that was. If I could only turn back the hands of time...sorry Gump

Happy Birthday to my Gemini twin, eight years apart. Carmen says that you don't have to eat a German prune/plum cake today. But I would gladly eat it if you could be here. My ONLY comfort is knowing that you are no longer tired all the time and the headaches have stopped. Hug Dad tight for me today and know I love and MISS you forever.  LUM

Steffie, 
Tomorrow, which is just a few minutes away, will be hard to face, but I am going to try and remember the joy of holding you in my arms for the first time. You were so small, so perfect that it brought tears to my eyes. Now the tears are in my heart forever. We were so blessed to have you in our lives. I love you forever. Mama

I changed the song to "Angels Among Us" because EVERYONE has told us over and over and over how you were an angel on earth. Daddy, Momma, Carmen, Wendi and I have always known that. Even we were amazed by how many people's lives have been made better for knowing you. Through your viewing and funeral we shook hands or were hugged by HUNDREDS of people who you've helped. An amazing angel. <3

I get up everyday and do what I have to do. Everyone is going thru their day when BAM out of nowhere it hits me that you are gone. I consider myself a somewhat intelligent person and yet I cant get my mind and heart to accept that this is real and not a horrible dream. I feel that same awful feeling well up in my chest and the tears come.

such a personable young lady, a hard loss to take. May God lift
all of you and carry you over these troubled waters into His land
of Peace for Families.

Claudy

Today I am taking momma to get her shot in her knee. Something you use to do. I am trying to do all the things you use to do for momma but although we wear the same size shoe, yours are hard to fill. Woke up in tears cause I miss you so much. Have a feeling of panic inside, it's hitting me hard today. This sadness is so heavy. I miss you Gump.

To my loving Seester, Ms. Bunny and the rest of the family...may your hearts forever be filled with all the wonderful memories and laughter Step brought to you. May your life and dreams be remembered with her spirit and all the joy she held. I wish so much to be there with you Seester for I know what a deep burden this is for you and your family. I love and miss you

Two weeks ago my whole life changed. What I wouldn't give for that "One more day" to sit and laugh with you, share a meal, read an email from you about a silly post on Craigslist. I wouldn't even know where to start to tell you how much you mean to me. I can't do it now. I hope you can hear my heart....

Gump,
I am so sorry that we never had a chance to really know each other.But there will still be a void where you were always in my thoughts. It will be another long mourning period for me as well as those who were closer to you than I. My heart goes out to all the ones left behind. All my love, your cousin.

Steffie-Gump,

My head knows you have left this world but yet I still look out the window for you. I wait for you to walk through the door in your pink sweater, flipping your hair behind your shoulders. I so desperately want you back. Your loss has shattered my soul. I love you.

My darling baby daughter; no words can describe the agony of losing you. My mind refuses to accept that this real. How is a mother who loves you so much accept that the new grave at the cemetery is now your eternal place to rest? Garry and I held hands as we tried to face what they tell us is reality. The only comfort I can find is that you are no longer in pain. I love and miss you. Mama

There are times when accepting the reality of life, that includes death is just too much to deal with. My only comfort is that you are with the Father and your Daddy. While you are missed here, I hope that you are at peace.  I wish you had taken better care of yourself as much as you did others, but whats done is done. I will love and miss you always.

To Tracy and Ron and all of your Family, I am deeply sorry for your lost. My God Bless you all.
This is a great trtibute to your Sister, nice pictures.
Best Regards,
RW