Husband, Celebrating the day your soul incarnated into this life and the Universe gave me a chance to love you and be loved by you. It’s been so many years but our love will never cease to persevere. You are a part of me. Of my soul. Happy birthday!
Eternally yours, I love you. ~ your wife

24 years ago you gave me your last name and we promised to love each other forever. No amount of time or space will ever change that. One of our shared passions was always music so I’ve added a few videos to let the lyrics fly through the clouds to the heavens to you.
Love forever, Heather

Still frozen in that moment when you left the Earth. I see it all so vividly. I miss you and still love you so much. You will always be the best part of me. Love, your wife.

I just watched Top Gun Maverick today (Memorial Day 2022) and it made me think of my best friend Tim. Top Gun has always been my favorite movie ever! It is probably what inspired me to join the Air Force and definitely made me love fighter planes and motorcycles.

I feel like if I was Maverick (Tom Cruise) then Tim was my Goose (Anthony Edwards). Best friends forever - thru life and death. But then I could see me being Maverick and Tim being Iceman also. Haha. Tim and I were rivals and didn’t like each other a whole lot when we first met, but then we became great friends and respected each other a lot as we got to know each other. Tim was my wingman and I was his, just like Maverick and Iceman.

I love you buddy. Still miss you a whole lot. Wish we could’ve had all these years to see each other grow and get old. How appropriate that today is Memorial Day, Top Gun Maverick opened this weekend, and I am honoring my best friend Tim all at the same time. Here is to you my friend.

By the way, Top Gun Maverick -
Well worth the money to watch on the big screen. I’ve been waiting 2 long years to see this damn movie and it didn’t disappoint! 

Happy birthday to my love. I know you’re heaven but I still hold you in my heart. I love you forever!

Happy Anniversary, my forever love. Spent 2 hours swimming again this morning. The injuries, physically and spiritually from the day you left the Earth, have come back full force to challenge me. Working to heal & get stronger again. Working to become the woman you fell in love with again. So much has changed. One thing hasn’t and that’s how much I still love & miss you, your touch, your laugh, the sparkle in your eyes. Always and forever, your wife.

I cherish the thought that 21 years ago at this time of day, you were still here on Earth, right next to me in the car on our way home. What adventures we imagined were ahead of us? What would our children have been like? My heart still breaks. I still miss you every day. I dreamt of you again today. One day, one year closer to you. I love you, husband.

Happy 4th of July to the love of my life. 25 years ago today you asked me to be your girlfriend. From that moment on this day has always held a separate & special meaning for me. It took years before I could watch fireworks or celebrate after you left. More years before I could watch without crying. Now, anytime I see them, I smile, close my eyes and imagine your arms around me. Can’t wait to be with you again. Forever my love, Heather. 

OMG - you would’ve turned 50 today!!! Man I would’ve given you so much crap! Haha. I’d only be 49 and you’d be an old, old man at 50. I’d buy you a cane for your birthday.

You’d be happy to know I’m still riding motorcycle. Just bought a new Kawasaki Ninja 650 last year. Yep - you heard me, Kawasaki! So Scott Russel (inside joke) only you and I would understand.

Anyway, I miss you bud. Always will. Wish I could’ve spent more time with you. Hope we can meet again someday.

Happy 50th birthday, my love. What kind of party would we have planned for this day? Maybe a trip to Texas (assuming we didn’t already live there). Maybe a romantic trip for two to the place you always dreamt of going. Maybe a surprise party with as many of your old AF buddies as I could gather. Or most likely, just a nice dinner with our kids, some well thought out gifts and lots of love. You came to me in my dream a couple nights ago. I smiled so big on my dream I have no doubt I was smiling in my sleep. That happy feeling stayed with me the whole day and I still feel it now. I love you, forever, Heather.

I Believe

https://youtu.be/esD0MoGe8DY

Twenty years and a split second ago we lost you. I was having a hard day last week, thinking of you, Jim, Dad and now Mom, gone from us but finally together. That night I saw 4 deer behind the house. Three adults and a fawn. Warmed my heart.

This is the first year Mom isn't writing to you. The second she passed, you were my first thought. I knew she grabbed you first and probably hasn't let you go. It makes me happy to know that the 2 of you are together, but I miss you ❣️

20 years without you. I just can’t today. I miss you and the life we would have had. Kids would have graduated or close to it. Sheltering in place with you during this pandemic time would have been heaven. Being in your arms any time during the day, daytime naps, late night movies, etc...Pure bliss. I miss who I was with you and the way you loved me. You don’t think your heart would continue to break but it does. I’ll love you forever.

I learned last night that your momma went home to Heaven to see you, your daddy and brother yesterday morning. Last time I saw her she talked of the joy she would have when she got to see you and hold you and dad again. I know she must have wanted to go even more after Jim passed. She is happier and feels better now and for that I am grateful. I wanted to call her last week but thought I’d be a bother so I didn’t. Now I wish I had. Just like you, I will love her forever. I can’t wait for the day I can see you again and feel your arms around me again. It’s the thing I want most. I love you! Your wife forever, Heather.

Today was always a happy day for me because you would be a year older than me (until May) and I’d make fun of how old you were! Lol
Wow - I still can’t believe you are gone! If I were to see you tomorrow it would feel like we never missed a beat and like we were just together last week. We always had that - where we could be apart for months and as soon as we were hanging out again, it was like we never missed a day!
It’s been 20 years now my friend. I hope I get to see you again when it’s my time to go . I miss you. You were my best friend and I still call you that today when I talk about you. Take care. I love you bud.

Happy (49th) birthday, my husband. I wrote more of our story the other night. It’s taking a long time but I hope to finish it one day. If not, it’s ok. We know our story. ❤️ I woke the next day in a little bit of a daze and so happy. Writing about us made it feel so real again. I miss you. One year closer to seeing you again. Love forever, your wife.

20 years ago on New Year’s Eve was such a magical night that I’ll never forget. Standing in the snow at the Idaho State Capitol. Thousands of people all around but in my mind it was just you and I. Fireworks set off over the capitol building at the stroke of midnight. You holding me tight and kissing me, making me forget it was only 34 degrees out. We were so happy. Looking forward to trying to starting our family that year. So many plans. Our last New Year’s Eve together. It was perfect. I had no idea what the year had planned for us. I’ll miss you my whole life. Until I’m with you again. Love forever, your wife.

Just thinking of my buddy from Kilgore High School and old days slinging burgers together.

Tim was always upbeat and ALWAYS smiling (even when he was driving that old green Maverick.)

RIP Tim.....never forgotten.  Will visit your grave again soon buddy. 

Happy Anniversary❤️ #21 years ago you talked me into eloping before moving to Idaho! I miss our adventures! I miss you!

I had a dream this morning. I was meeting someone that was supposed to be a stranger but as soon as I saw “you”, I knew it was the same man I’d been married to and lost. “You” just looked at me as if to say, “Hey, I think I know you.” and you smiled that big smile and proceeded to talk and flirt the entire time. It was hard for me to pretend I didn’t know you while in my head I was thinking of all the loose ends I needed to tie up so I could move to be where you were to grow our relationship again. I was happy we were going to get a “do-over”. I was so happy in that dream. I was sad when I woke up. I will always miss you and I can’t wait to see you in heaven again someday. #Sept4 #19Years

This song reminds me of you. https://youtu.be/CV7GVjg3TV4

20 years ago about this time of day, you came home and said you got orders to Mt Home Idaho and that it would make things a lot easier if we were already married before we moved. So...we jumped in the car and headed to Tahoe. Everything was closed so we continued to Reno and got married. I was wearing blue jeans, black blazer and black boots. You were in blue jeans and a nice button up. Proof you don’t need a big fancy wedding to have an incredibly happy marriage. I’ll love you forever. Happy Anniversary! Love, your wife. (Can’t even imagine what our life would be by now. ❤️

Rough year. Keep thinking of what our life would be today if you had never gone. My heart aches at the loss of what we could have been. Forever your wife. That word seems so foreign now. https://youtu.be/RbDuM-f36Hs

Love never ends, time goes on, memories never fade...you are still in my thoughts & heart. Dad is keeping you company now, I am hoping....don't know how things go up there, but it gives me comfort to think you are together!! I miss you both so much! If only we could turn the clock back 18 years!!! :-) Love always, Mom

Happy Birthday Tim, Hunted for my password book...just found it this morning. Sorry I'm a bit late... It was an exciting day yesterday waiting for your nephew Aarons little boy to arrive. He is a big boy, 8# 2oz. 21in. Named him Reid. Tye is going to be a wonderful big brother! Still miss you & now Dad too. Time is winding down for me too. I love you Tim, watch over dad & keep him out of trouble. Can't imagine what you do up there!! It must be a beautiful place. Happy 47th!!! Love ya.

Our wedding song.
https://youtu.be/b4aTUaEgH0Q

Happy Birthday Husband! 47!! You will always be my one true love. I still love and miss you and everything you brought to my life.

You’re still the only reason I believe in love. Happy anniversary my husband. I miss you with everything I am.

https://youtu.be/DZWYn7VCseY

We remember you well Timothy! Married your older sister and what a blessing that has been. Jerry

Another year has passed. Pat & I will go to the cemetery in a few minutes. It is getting crowded out there, which reminds me of the many hearts that are saddened by their loss also. I wish I knew more about what goes on in Heaven....Like what are you & Dad doing up there?? But one day, we who believe, will find out!! Missing & loving you both!! Mom, 2017

You left this Earth 17 years ago today babe. It's even on a Monday again. The holiday again. I was terrified driving this weekend wanting to just get home and off the road. I miss you still so much and wish I could talk with you and hear your voice. Thank you for the love you gave me. It will always be my strength. I love you! Forever, your wife. ❤️

Happy Birthday Timothy. Time is catching up with us all. We now have 2 missing from our family picture. I hope you will take care of dad. show him around. We all miss him so much, just like we missed you back in 2000.You both left so suddenly. which makes it hard to grasp. Now I'm alone in the house & have time to remember how in was in happier days. I love you, miss you & will see you soon!! Mom

Happy Birthday my forever husband. So much has been changing this last year. You already know Dad has finally headed up there to spend time with you. When I heard the news, I could almost hear that one of a kind laugh of yours as you spread your arms wide to greet him when you saw him coming through those gates. It almost feels silly writing to you on here since I know you're with me every moment and know where my life is heading. There's so much to say but space is limited here, so I will just say, happy birthday and I love you forever! - Heather

Our last words to each other ring through my memory so often... "I love you, husband!" "I love you, wife!"

18 years ago tonight you blessed my life by making me your wife. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think of you, miss you and know how blessed I am to have been loved by such an amazing man. Meeting you made me believe in soul mates, loving you made me believe in love, being loved by you made me believe in myself. My life changed the day we met and again the day this world lost you but I'm grateful that you love and energy still surround, comfort and guide me every day I'm on this Earth. You are and always will be my husband and my angel. I love you Timothy Paul! - Love forever, Heather

Sorry I couldn/t write on the day you were taken from us...I was in the hospital. It's tuff. getting old & tired.Sixteen years doesn't make a difference on how much you are missed! Love you bunches & bunches as always, Mom & Dad

Hey Tim! Miss ya man and I know your family sure does.

Thoughts of you today and tugs at the heart. The empty space you left behind is still a huge hole and a solid brick wall all at once. Still missing you!

In just a few hours it will be 16 years since we lost you. You still are & always will in my heart and soul. In our 4 years together you showed me how beautiful love could be. I hadn't known it before you and haven't known it since you...until now. It's taken 16 years but I found someone who loves me as wholly and unconditionally as you did. Because of who he is, I know you and mom had a part in connecting me with him again. I've known him most of my life and I'm grateful for being blessed for a second time with a man who loves me with his whole heart the way you did. I love and miss you! ~ Forever your wife❤️

Happy Birthday to my one and only true love. As long as I live, you will always be The One! I love you as much today as the day I married you. I always will! I continue to live my life in a way that I hope would make you proud! 

Tomorrow would be your 45th birthday! How would you react to that number? I know you would have a hairline like your brothers by now!!! We still miss you, walk past your picture daily,& are reminded of the many things you said & did while here with us. Happy Birthday Son, Love you still. Dad & Mom

17 years ago today, we said I Do, forever. And I still do. I will always be your wife. I love you. ❤️

The month between September 4th and October 4th is always rough. I heard this for the first time tonight and still, after 15 years it's what I long for.

http://youtu.be/0kemI20dYWw

Glad my spot is saved next to you. <3

Was it 15 years ago, or just yesterday, you left us? The memory is still so clear, but the length of time gives us time to recall all the fun we had. We are so thankful we had you in our lives, & only wish you could have been here still, to make us laugh again.We love you, & miss you.

Missing my husband terribly. This will always be a hard day. Thank you for the love you gave me in life and the love I continue to feel from your soul every day. And thank you for saving my life that night. I love you now, always and forever. ❤️

RIP, Timothy.

I've been thinking a lot about you lately as friends' lives are touched by the death of a loved one. I feel for them because I still feel the pain of your death. It's not the searing, ripping pain anymore, but my soul is definitely bruised. Sometimes somebody's life bumps into mine and hits that spot, and the tears well up. I miss you and always will.

Happy Birthday Son! Slowly getting moved next door to Pat.Going to have to go through your stuff you left behind, know it will bring back many memories.We LOVE you & miss you everyday!!

Happy Birthday Timothy Paul! I started writing our story. I'm hoping by this time next year I can "gift" it to you by having it finished and maybe published. There are so many little nuances of our love to write down, I'm worried I will forget something. You are still so much my world. Love forever, Heather

❤️I finally decided to light our wedding candle that we were saving for our first house that we owned. It's been burning now for hours, filling the whole house with LOVE! Thank you for gifting me with your love! It still remains the best part of who I am. ❤️

Today would have been our 16th anniversary. Take this flower and wait for me. I don't know how long I'll be but I'll keep loving you. <3

Another year has come & gone. It seems like you have been gone more than 14 years, & yet that morning we got the news, is always just a breath away! We miss you & will see you again one day. Love Dad & Mom