My beautiful princess, im still waiting for the minutes, hours and days to get easier but if anything the more time that goes by the worse i seem to feel, my chest physically hurts because of how much i miss you, i dont actually know what its like to go a whole day without crying anymore. I cry myself to sleep every time because all i see is your perfect face when i close my eyes!! Im so so scared that your not ok or your alone or you dont understand whats happening and im not there to protect you like a mummy should. I feel so angry at the world and myself because i couldnt protect you and dont know how to be in this world without you. You always made things feel like they would be ok no matter how hard they got because at least we had each other and now your gone i physically dont know how to be ok without you, i dont know how to feel like everythings going to be ok, i dont physically know how to want to carry on without you, Iv never felt so alone without feeling your heartbeat on my chest, i feel broken, empty and completly lost and i would literally give anything to know your ok. I hope wherever you are you know how much i love you princess, you couldnt of been anymore perfect if you tryed and you dont leave my mind or heart for 1 second of every day!!