Miss you babygirl every second of the day i miss you, I cant put into words how much it hurts to be in this world without my soulmate xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Ralphy went back home this weekend babygirl, i have to admit it did fill a tiny bit of the hole having him here knowing i had part of you still with me, He is so much like you now too, when he was young he couldnt be more different but i see so so many simularitys with you both, there was so many times in the night i woke up thinking it was you and i also called him by your name a few times too!! I dont know if he was confused wondering where you was and also at nannys wondering where betsy was too. I really hope your somewhere with betsy my perfect little angel looking after her and not bullying her!! I still spend every morning when i wake up and every night before i go to sleep thinking about you babygirl and mabe one day i will be ready to have another dog but i know he/she wont be my soul mate like you was and always will be, I still feel so guilty for not protecting you from all of this princess and iv never felt heart break like i do every day since youv been gone, I hope more than anything one day we will be reunited and my heart will feel whole again. Love you more than words could ever decribe my perfect little baby and i miss you every second of every day!! Sweet dreams angel xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I really hope wherever you are that you know from the minute i open my eyes in the morning till the minute i go to sleep you are on my mind always!! Im still waiting for it to get easier but time doesnt seem to be doing that, i would honestly give anything to wake up and feel your heartbeat on mine again!! Miss you so much princess i hope more than anything your somewhere happier and better than here!! <3 love you baby girl always and forever <3 

Miss you princess!! I put a box or heavy blanket on the end of the bed every night so for the first 30seconds of waking up it still feels like your lieing on my feet still, Never thought i could miss someone so much my beautiful perfect baby!! <3 

My perfect little princess.......I dont think i ever quite new what lonely felt like untill i lost you, it never mattered what was going on in the world you always seemed to bring me back to a happy place knowing it was you and me against the world. You was the only one who truly knew what i went through everytime i was poorly, everytime i couldnt leave my bed for weeks you would refuse to leave my side even to go to the toilet! You used to cause yourself so many water infections just because you didnt want to go outside and leave me for a minute!! Everytime i was poorly youd had to be touching me i always thought it was so you could check i had a heartbeat as thats why id always fall asleep with my hand on your tummy!! Youd never do as you was told, infact youd do the complete oppisit of whatever i asked just to show me how clever you was!! I honestly miss you every second of every day and i thought in time it would get a little easier but as the months go by its just as hard as the day i lost you!! Every single shop i go into, everytime i step on the train anything i do constantly reminds me im now doing it alone and it breaks my heart!! I cant bring myself to go to your opa's in switzerland without you, its been over a year since iv seen my little sister because going there without you feels like the hardest thing in the world, I know every shop or restuarent i would step foot in would wonder where you was, how could i go on the beautiful walks without you giving me dirty looks there another hill to climb, how could i walk down to the lake and take in the views without you!! How could i go to the waterfalls without you saulking because you knew i would put you in the water to call you down. Nothing is gonna be the same now but i really do hope your in the most amazing place you could be, i honestly would give anything to just know that wherever you are your ok babygirl <3 

Feeling a little better today about you being somewhere better than here, as much as I need you and as selfish as it is I just wish I was there with you!! If reincarnation exists I know that the next family you are with are going to be the most luckiest family on the planet and I hope they treat you like the Princess you are!! I miss you so much already and I really am so truly sorry I couldn't protect you from this, I will never forgive myself for letting this happen to something as perfect as you!! You truly are the reason I am who I am today and without you I just feel broken. Sweet dreams my perfect princess mummy misses and loves you more than words could ever say I hope you are at peace somewhere safe.

i made a long video today babygirl of all our precious moments together, everyone else has cryed when they watched it when it actually brings me joy as for a second i forget and feel like im in the videos with you now, i miss you so much, nothing i do can get you off of my mind, i still feel like if i dont leave my room your still down in that corner, i still leave the bathroom door open incase you panick you cant see me, iv still left your pads down and im still expecting to stand in a wet patch as even though this pain im feeling physically hurtz my body and heart i still feel like your here!! i miss you smell, your fur, even your bad breath but most of all i miss your cuddles, i miss feeling your heartbeat on my chest, i miss you eyes slowly going asleep because your watching my eyes fall asleep, i miss the way you always new when to be gentle and when you always new when i was well enough to play, i miss the way you tilt you head, i miss the way you understood everything i said, i miss that look you gave me when you was annoyed, i miss the way you would ignore me for days if i left you for 20 minutes, i miss the way you would ignore anyone who tryed to say hello but if you cant ignore you would go for them, i miss the way you would sleep on my head, i miss the way you would never take a selfie with me, i miss the way you would make me laugh till i cryed, i miss the way you would stick your nose up at treats because they was dog treats and not human treats, i miss the way whenever i told you to come to me you would go to someone else to be stubborn, i miss the way you would saulk if you didnt get your way, i miss the way you would wake me up with kisses, i miss the way you would refuse to leave my side if i was poorly, i miss the way you always got so excited whenever i woke up, i miss you not getting out of your bag when id put you down and make you walk, i miss going out and everyone being more excited to see you then me, i miss how famous you was, i miss you attitude problem, i miss you kind heart, i miss you husky bark and your from growl, i miss your snorting but more than anything i really miss our cuddles, i really miss my princess, i just really really really miss you!! love you my beautiful angel <3