His Life

Growing up

Todd was born March 30, 1980. Weighing in at more than 10 pounds with red hair and beautiful smooth fair skin.  Although, I was only 3 years old when my brother came into this world,  my mother always told me how proud I was to be a big sister. 

Little did I know just how much this little baby brother would come to mean to me. 

Then came our baby brother Joe in March 1983. The 3 of us had a bond so strong.  Most people just cant understand.  

We took care of each other.  Although I was the oldest, Todd always watched out for me. He protected me. 

Our mother raised the 3 of us on her own. Of course our father was in our lives but our parents separated when we were very young. 

Ill never forget all the nights Todd and I would stay up nearly all night watching the home shopping network. Lol 

Todd loved to explore the neighborhood and always came home with a smile and alot of dirt and grime from his adventures.  

Young adult

As the years passed and Todd grew up, he met a girl and they married and had a daughter. After Karlee was born Todd was so happy. He was a farmer and worked so hard to.provide for his family. My brother was the smartest, funniest, big heartedest man ive ever known. He could take a pile of nothing amd turn it into something useful and creative. 

My brother, my best friend

Todd struggled with mental illness throughout his adult life. And in the end, he lost his battle with depression and mental illness. 

My brother left us Only 8 months ago but, i miss him so much.

My life was him.

His wings were ready 

My heart was not

Life without you

It's been over a year now since you left us. And everyday is just so hard. Nothing is the same. My heart aches for you everyday. There's so many times I could have used your help with something. I feel like I've lost a part of myself. This pain is so raw and so deep I know that I'll never get over it or get past it. I just have to learn to live with it. Carly is grown into a beautiful little girl is she misses you so much. My Aspen talks about you everyday. You were like a father to her. I miss you so much my brother I wish I could change places with you.