Love of my life, three years today. I’m going to post a video of you dancing at a Diana Ross concert, ironically to “I Will Survive” and after you had shaken her hand. It’s so you. You perfectly balanced all characteristics I valued. Confident, but never cocky and always grounded. Kind and loving, but never a pushover. Serious about important things and absolutely silly about things of no consequence. Authentic and real always, but in a guarded way.

Today is Good Friday, and it’s a day that Heaven accepted a new angel 3 years ago. Loved and remembered forever, my beautiful.

Happy Anniversary, love of my life. So hard to believe it's been 3 years since I last heard your voice. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't miss you deeply or would give anything for a bit more time. I am grateful for every single second we had together as it was a rare gift.

My beautiful love, it's hard to believe you have been gone from this planet for 2 years as of this morning. I still can't fathom how the planet can continue to turn without the light that you cast on all who knew and still love you. It was difficult to lose Jesse James, our 4.2 pound "Malteser" at the beginning of this year, not just because he was an angel but also because he was such a part of you. I am heartened by the fact that he's finally at rest in your arms as he never the same after you were gone. I am laying at your feet a bunch of daffodils now out and about, signifying the season you loved, and a bouquet of red roses, representing our eternal love and bond. I love and miss you with every fiber of my being. Lulu, Coco, Rosie and Rainey send you their wet nose love as well....

I have been remiss in sharing some tributes given to me by Tracy's most recent colleagues at Barings. I felt it important to put them out there, but obscure last names...

-"What a thoughtful and amazing obituary and thank you for sharing it with us. I am in tears and can't imagine how sad this has made you and others on our team that had a closer bond to Tracy. I knew Tracy via email or phone only but could tell what exactly how Kristine describes her in many ways. As I personally embark on my 55th birthday this month, I will think of Tracy often and put things in perspective a bit differently. May she rest peacefully after such a courageous and humble fight but what a beautiful life she lived while she could. A true inspiration for all of us." - Andrea O.

-"It is with great sadness that I received this news and I would like to pass along my sincere appreciation for all Tracy did for us as a team and me personally. I seldom found anyone with Tracy's combination of excellence at her work, full dedication without reservations, and incredible self-effacement. I will truly miss her. We all will." - Richard A.

-"This is obviously terrible news and please pass along my condolences and best wishes to her partner and family. As you know, I worked fairly closely with Tracy for a number of years. She was precise, articulate and a proud Brit, always keen to hear about news from these shores, whether trivial or serious. Latterly, I enjoyed hearing her dog(s) barking in the background on calls; needless to say, Tracy didn't care. Although a dog lover, she was a pretty cool cat and I can't recall her ever being flustered. I will sincerely miss her." -Nick D.

-"Rich shared the sad news with me. As you know, Tracy was an exceptional partner to the EMD team. She will be missed and we all enjoyed the friendship we all developed with her." -Darren G.

-"I just heard the devastating news about Tracy - I cannot believe it. She was absolutely wonderful and I enjoyed working with her so much - I loved all of our conversations. If you get more info about, perhaps her address, I would really like to send something to her partner and pups. I hope you are ok." - Ashley H.

-"Tracy - We will forever miss your cheery and helpful advice, your willingness to help unpick the most convoluted of US legal technicalities, and all your support over the years. Our thoughts are with you and all those who loved and cared for you." -Ben G.

-"Tracy, you were always so willing to help out and take the time provide detailed advice on complex areas. We will miss your conscientious and happy outlook enormously. My deepest sympathies and best wishes go to you and your family in this difficult time." - Henry S.

-"I have so enjoyed chatting to Tracy over the years - talking about Becky High, living in Buckinghamshire, living in London and visiting Cliveden House in Bucks where Meghan Markle spent the night before marrying Prince Harry and was once owned by the Astor family who had connections to Tracy's family.....wow!! Tracy was also such a pleasure to work with - she had a helpful "can do" attitude and nothing ever seemed too much. All of us in London loved her English accent with its American twang! Tracy, her family and friends and all in my thoughts and prayers and I hope they find comfort knowing how much she will be missed." Caroline M.

-"Dear Kristine, Just wanted to convey my deepest condolences to you and the rest of the family. Tracy was a wonderfully kind person and a delight to work with. I am a derivatives lawyer based in Barings' London office and Tracy was always happy to share her knowledge/attend to my queries on US regulations. I know you will be treasuring memories of Tracy and I wanted you to know how much she will be missed here as well." - Michelle T.

Thank you, thank you, thank you! I know how amazing Tracy was in every aspect of her life, but it helps to hear how she impacted others around her....and that she will be missed by all.

Rest In Peace Tracy Jane Hawkins. I meant to write this sooner and appreciate the other tributes. Tracy was my friend and spiritual anchor while I worked with her at Barclays Global Investors in San Francisco. I recall first meeting Tracy as a new colleague from England. I thought she was shy and funny. It turned out she was funny but not that shy. Tracy was brilliant as a legal and business thinker.  She had great integrity. As a colleague Tracy became an unofficial mentor to a number of us. Tracy a d I shared a love of animals, psychic phenomena, spirituality, music and fun. I recall fondly our work social times over lunch or coffee/tea and after work drinks. Fond memories include Tracy and Andrea playing “tickle monsters” with my young son, and my ex husband and I serving the strongest Cosmos they ever had. We survived the 2008-9 crash.  I lost touch to a degree after she moved. I’m grateful to Kristine, Tracy’s loving partner, for sharing Tracy and including her SF friends in the memorial. Your light shines on Lady Hawkins.   ❤️ 

It’s wonderful when the mention of an individual’s name brings a smile to the face and kindles a warmth of the heart. Above all else, to have made a positive impact in the lives of others is the greatest legacy we can leave. Tracy’s kindness and generosity left a mark on everyone. She did indeed make this world a better place by making each of us a bit better. We can carry that forward, and in doing so, honor her legacy.

Tracy, you were the dearest friend, love, and partner of my very dear friend, Kristine. I know you brought her great happiness simply by being the beautiful soul that you are.  But you also shared many joyful adventures with her and a love of fur babies. 
I am grateful that Kristine brought you into our circle of UVM friends, although it was for far too short a time. I wish we had had more opportunities to get together so that I could have known you even better. Having now lost two members of the circle makes my heart very sad and makes me determined to stay better connected to all of my core friends. Life is too short not to take the time to show appreciation to those we care about. 
Thank you for touching my life and most importantly for being someone who brought so much love to one of those core friends.
You are missed.

Even though your earthly light has dimmed, you will forever shine bright in the stars, my dearest Tracy. You were so important in my life and I am so grateful that I had a chance to travel the world with you when we did. I will forever cherish all of the memories we made together! You were so special to me and showed me the meaning of great love, kindness, compassion, laughter, generosity, adventure, goofiness, British humor, and being the toughest fighter that I have ever known. You had a strength and wisdom very few have within them. You have made a lasting impact on my life and so many friends and family members too. You only just passed and I already miss you so much. I guess it was decided that heaven needed another Angel so look over us all and remember that I will love you, forever and ever. R.I.P. Tracy Jane Hawkins.