I want to write this as if I am speaking directly to my grandmother because that makes me feel more comfortable and closer to her. ❤️ Hi, Grandma. I hope you can hear me when I talk to you throughout the day. Everything that reminds me of you takes me back to when I was that little girl you loved with all your heart, like Lipton tea, food spices and seasonings, bingo markers, the Warriors, crisp, white blouses, and strawberry ice cream and milkshakes. I remember you watching Young and the Restless and The Bold and the Beautiful every single weekday morning laying in your bed, and how you were so into it. You hated when someone would call you while they were on because you loved them so much. Lol. I also remember you singing “Reflection” by Christina Aguilera, from Mulan, with me and how much we both loved it. That song will forever remind me of you and whenever I sing it, I will be singing it to you. There are so many other memories of you that I keep sacred to me, the list goes on and on.
Grandma, you don't know how much I will always miss you. I really wish God let you stay. I know you would want me to be happy and keep my head up, but… this is insanely difficult and I don't think I will ever fully accept not having you physically there with me and the rest of your family. I really need a hug from you, those very tight and warm hugs you gave. Grandma we still had so much to do and see together… Please know that I will make you so proud and that I'm never giving up in this life. I'm doing this for you and Grandpa, who I know is full of pure bliss now that he has his lady, his true love, with him again. I love you and miss you both so badly, always wishing you two would be there when I look over my shoulder…
I love you ❤ you’re at peace now. Tell Grandpa I love him, okay?. I’ll be seeing you both again, one sweet day.
Love,
Cydnee