Cain loved golf...as long as it he was in the cart...it wasn't hot...I wasn't bugging him...he was hitting the ball right...he had plenty of water....he had Cara...to "goof" with...he could pose....
Dad....
Cain posing on the swimming platform...note the look of the girl next to Cain...she wondering what has she done wrong to be next to this wild man....
Dad
Carolyn said..."this will be the first Easter, we will be alone." Even with the good news of Easter...I still miss Cain...Carolyn says she misses him...so much..it's a physical pain..yesterday at Easter service...I recalled the Sunday before Cain died...he was the acolyte...and after the Sermon he came and sat by Carolyn...putting his head on her shoulder...probably for the last time...I miss not having the leave the Easter service early to hide eggs in the house....I miss my son.
Love,
Dad
Can't remember the year...2007..we went to New York and celebrated Cain's birthday...
Dad.....
I came to this page today to read about Cain. It's funny that you have a Moody Blues song playing because they were Ken's favorite group and I've heard him play this song so many times. I had never thought of it in connection with the deaths of loved ones. Ken would so much appreciate that you picked it for Cain. So, I sit here typing this with tears on my face for Cain and for Ken too. I'm SOOO glad you came to the tournament to see Derrick & I. I think hugging Bill and talking together helped me. Shared grief. Thank you both for the shirts. Derrick wore his to basketball practice and continues to wear it here. I wore mine to one of the practices here and explained to some people who he was. Carolyn, Bill & Cara, God be with you and my you only get stronger because of his death. It's only been 6 months for me and I have good days and bad days, I know you do too. God knows.
2 years without the person who has made me who i am today. i truly believe that his steadfast love for God, his humor, and his caring has molded me into who i am more than anyone else. i love Cain more than he was willing to accept. by that i mean for example, that the last thing i said to him was "i love you". i was sitting in bed on the laptop and he came and plopped down next to me to look at what i was doing. we smiled and i just looked at him for a little bit and he looked at me. then i said "i love you, Cain". and at the time he would not accpet me saying "i love you" to him, so he responded "no, my girlfrin"...meaning that only his girlfriend could love him and say "i love you" to him. i've always been relieved that my last words to him were "i love you"
Cain, missing you a lot today on this 2nd anniversary of your leaving this world for a better one. I know you are happy and healthy and causing excessive smiling in everything you do!
I am unable to return to work due to an aneurysm 7 months ago today and I was looking online for volunteer opportunities - I started thinking about you and all the fun times we had. I miss those days but I know that God has a plan for all of us...as painful as his decision can be...there is a good reason for everything.
I hope you remember me...I will never forget you.
Kelly
The day Cain died was Cara's first day at a real job...she got to the hospital...walked through sliding glass doors...right by the waiting room...and I had to tell her that Cain had died...I'll never forget her expression...the.look of disbelief...then...
Dad
Kissed Carolyn as I left for work today...just as I did 2 years ago...nothing unusual 2 years ago...at 10:15 Carolyn called and said Cain had collapsed at work...the night before he died I remember him sitting by me on the couch...rubbing his hand...as he fell asleep...less than 24 hours later I'd be rubbing his hand...touching his face...kissing him...for the last time on earth...
Knowing he passed instantly into heaven...maybe not knowing what had happended....but knowing he was different...in a new place of happiness...without any limits...with friends and family...smiling....smiling...smiling...smiling....smiling...as he was welcomed home...by Jesus...all this brings comfort...while I wait to be reunited...
Dad
This is one of my favorite pcitures of Cain and Carolyn...I do not think Carolyn has been has happy as she looks in this picture...since Cain died.
Bill
No one knows...how sad I feel most days when I drive home after basketball practice...in an empty car. All the players are yucking it up with good-byes to athletes they will probably see the next morning...or call the next day. As it might happen on some days...Cain and I would end up at a red light next to Elise...and Cain and her and I would laugh and make faces...and....
I now try to avoid those circumstances....I can still see Cain's huge smile...and if he was particularly silly...and laugh so hard...he would start jiggling so hard he would plead "stop...pwease".
Dad
Cain...preparing for basketball among his fans.....
I will miss Cain....when I coach his friends at area basketball.
Love,
Dad
As while I was leaving...the Doctor's office manager came outside...it turns out she lives in our neighborhood...and said she will always remember Cain...in this cape...waving at every car...talking to folks as they walked past...and she misses not seeing him.
So do I!!!!
Dad
I had a Doctor's appointment...they had a new nurse introducing me to their new electronic record keeping, Obamacare requirement...for awhile...she left...and a face that I new returned...I said I was going to tell the other nurse (who is specialist is drawing blood)...about the time Cain was in the office in November before he died...and how NO ONE at the office could draw Cain's blood...even Quest Lab could not draw enough blood to get a read on Cain...I've said before...I am so ashamed of not getting the blood...maybe....I'm sure it would have revealed Cain was having more problems than he could express....
I'm sorry Cain!
Dad
Cain's eyes are closed...just wondering what he may be thinking in this picture. Bliss...joy...romance...
I may ask him...when I next see him as he welcomes me home...
Love, Dad
Cara just received this Cain photo...from his last Circle of Friends Prom...he looks sooooooo happy! Not sure if I ever made him look this happy. I'm always saddened by the fact that Cain never got to "kiss the girl"...but I must be joyful, even now through the tears...that Cain is more happy than this picture and I ever could think of making him happy...
Love, Dad
Christmas 2012 came and went without Cain. Christmas Eve service missed Cain. PB was scouting the crowd for a crucifer, which Cain loved to do...and for someone to carry the Bible for the Christmas reading. Cain did both the Christmas before he died.
We still hang Cain's Christmas stocking...but...I found it painful for Cain's stocking to be empty on Chrtistmas morning. He we would get candy and little stocking stuffers and gift cards...which, even though he couldn't read, he new were for Walmart...or Target..or Barnes and Noble...
Until the day you welcome me home to Heaven...my heart aches.
Love,
Dad
Cain "loved" Katana. Katana always wants to practice with the basbketball Cain used. She knows it was Cain's favorite basketball.
I miss him too, Katana....
Dad....
Carolyn would drive Cain to work...he liked to listen to the Catholic radio station...playing the Mass...Carolyn said he loved to sing along...using only one note...loudly...Carolyn said when she got to work on March 7...the song was not over...he wanted to hear and sing...then he got out of the car...and was still singing...pointing to heaven...as he looked back at her....singing...pointing...heaven...we all should have that hope and joy...now, he sings...perferctly...
Love Dad
While looking for some work papers, I found a file re Cain...it included his death certificate...officially at 12:05 , March 7, 2011 Cain died...but...it also inidcated the cause of death was cardiac arrest..."immediate"...when he slumped over...about 10:15...hit his head...he was gone...to be with his bestest friend...Jesus...I eagerly await for my reunion with my best friend, Cain...our bestest friend Jesus...
I'm standing next to Donald and Kristin...both worked with Cain....both were there the day Cain died...both...seek me out at Special Oly events...
I miss not seeing Cain's work friends...I'm seeing Cain laugh and make his friends laugh...I miss not laughing as much...not having my jokester in residence...
I miss Cain!!!!
Love,
Dad.....
Cain's last State Basketball team...he leaning on his friend, Coach Brian....
I miss him...it's not easier... only further along until I can see him again...
Love,
Dad
Here he sits waiting to "golffffff".
It was very hot....he had to walk the course...he was hot...
I miss my son....I know it's now been 19 months....yes 19 months....since last I kissed Cain...last rubbed his hands...straightened his hair...
Love....
Dad
Miss you....miss you ...miss you.......
Love
Dad
18 months ago...Cain left for work...and by 10:15 he was called home...I miss Cain....
Dad
Cain I miss you...and the silence..without your laughter watching funny videos...talking to the dogs...singing...talking about Jesus...movies...the silence...the silence...I miss....I miss...I miss...my son....
Love
Dad
Happy Birhday...we have now missed 2 Cain birthdays...these were the altar flowers on 8.19.12 at Lamb of God....
Cain...I miss you!
Waiting to see you and your goofy smile....
Love....
Dad
Opening gifts from his friends....
Dad....
Cain and Samatha...the King receives the well wishes from one of his "lessor" ladies. His prime "lady" sits at his right.
Dad....
Cain and Katana.....
Dad
Cain and his friends.....
Dad
The King and his ladies....
Today Cain would have beed 26....
Love
Dad......
Look at the "bad Santa" eyeballing Cain...
Love
Dad
Resting in the cart...it was hot...day....
Dad
This is photo of Cain and I going to the first hole of the mini golf trouney that ended his golf career.
Dad
Not sure how many characters Cain is wearing...but...never more...
Dad
This is Cain...and I miss him!
Dad
Family photo at Cara's 18th birthday.
Dad
I miss Cain!!!!!!!!!!
Live,
Dad.....
Michael Phelps was lucky...Cain was not in 2008 Olympics in China...
Dad
Here is Cain's second shot on a par 3 at the Lake Park exeutive course in Lewisville Texas. He's not Tiger Woods...it's hard to see but at the end of the clip...he's waving off the advice of his caddy...he was golf diva...
Dad
This one of Cain's Circle of Friends Prom friends...as this video...ends with a slow dance...and the slow dance is what Cain wanted...this girl's mom, stopped and chatted with Carolyn and I at a restaurant...she said Cain would always say XXXX was Cain's girlfriend and her daughter would have to say "no, I have a boyfriend"...and she said Cain was OKAY with that....he looks so happy..listening to her sing to him....
Dad
This is shot with a camera we never could figure out...this is called the cave mode.
Here you go...Cain taking it to Steve...watch Cain's ball fakes...and John Cenna's, "you can't see me" move.
Cain won.....
Dad......
This a picture of Cain in the hospital in December of 2008. The results indicated that Cain was going to die. There was nothing that could be done. There were no surgical procedures to improve it. We expected a lot more time with Cain...than the 3 years and 3 months...from this photo. Cain died of a broken heart. Our hearts are now borken....missing Cain.....
Dad.....
Cara....and the monster birds....Cain did not like.....
Dad
Yes...Cain they will not hurt you...
Dad....
Here are the small birds that Cain...freaked....
There are not too many photos of Cain crying...but...we were at Sea World San Antonio...where there is cage of small parakeets (but called something else) where you could hold a small cup of syrup and they would come and sit on your hands drink the syrup...well... Cain just freaked out...and started crying....
Dad.....
Afer Cain got hooked on powder cigs...he moved up to straw and pencil cigs....
Dad.....
