Our sweet daughter wrote this, I could not say it better so I’m sharing it! I love and miss you Son !!
Today marks 15 years since Chad died. Life has never gone back to “normal”. It was a different life, a different time. The pain is still very real. Everything failed him, we all failed him... the healthcare industry, big pharma, the system failed. The same as it’s failing all of us today.
He wrote this I just typed it out for him. There was no Facebook or even MySpace when he died. I think if there were he may have been able to open up to the world a lot more than he was capable of 20 years ago.
These words, from his head to his pen to the paper have so many meanings that only a few of us can make sense of.
Chad was a special person and deserved so much more than this life gave him in his short 22 years.
Can’t believe it’s been 15 years.
I love you brother ♥️
Written by my brother, he died 7 years ago today :'(
just hold onto happy thoughts. its ridiculous. i know the things i do that would seem to make me happy are done to appease the demons that possess my soul. i have no hope for the future and the past is such a dreary place. i dont want to kill myself, but i do sometimes wish that God would take me in my sleep. i cant remember when i didnt feel this way. i know now and i've known for a long time to stop thinking these things and grab life by the balls but its the fear that holds me back, the fear that grips my heart and wrenches it into oblivion, but to break through that fear takes time and my time has already expired.