Hello my son. My god i miss you so much i keep asking myself why. If i only new why and if i was only there with you maybe this would of never of happened. I cry everyday and its not getting any better i have seen the girls and there so beautiful. I thank god i have them in my life no one else seems to care if i am alive i love you. Your always in my thoughts mom

Jason last night I think the reality of u being gone has finally hit our Jolene she had a rough night n so far rough day. A day I knew was coming but didn’t know when or what time of day it would hit and well it finally hit her hard last night. A day that had broken my heart all over again an feel hopeless an worthless bc I don’t know what to do or to say to her besides comfort her which still feels like it’s not enough bc I break down trying to be the best mom to our girls but it feels like it’s now going to get a lot harder especially as reality is actually hitting her. She was in full blown tears and shacking bc all she could say is I really really miss daddy mommy, she said all she wants to do is cuddle with her daddy to hear u say one more time u love her to tell her she’s beautiful when she wears her pigtails as u always told her she looked so pretty with them. I need u to please help me threw this bc I know it’s only going to get harder now. Please please please show our little girl ur okay an let her know ur safe so it helps comfort her a little n to ease her mind. We miss u n love u so much and everyday is heart breaking all over again to me as I watch our girls wake up everyday n see the pain they have it leaves such a huge hole in our hearts jason we love u so much an miss u

I know it’s been a little just been really busy along with keeping our girls busy especially on their hard days. Not a day goes by they don’t mention u or have something we do that reminds them of u. They miss u so much. Sometimes I feel like everything around me is falling apart but then somehow I manage to pull threw a lot of it which I know is u watching over the girls an myself. We miss u n love u more then u can imagine life doesn’t get easier all we do is manage everyday.

Happy 31st birthday in heaven Jason this isn’t easy for me as I just had a really hard time with Father’s Day the girls sent u balloons I hope u got them n very shortly will be sending u ur balloons we miss u so much jason things have been hard days I want to fall apart an today is one of them bc again I see the hurt in the girls eyes I want to cry u should be here please let me know or the girls know when u see their balloons coming to u. Have a good birthday celebration with everyone in heaven including my dad make some noise be u I miss u for ur silly side ur sarcastic side I can go on n on happy birthday we love u an miss u so much jason I hope I am doing everything I can to make u smile an know I’m raising our girls the best I can

Happy birthday my son in heaven i hope you got the ballons and card i sent you. I wish you were here my life will never be the same with out you i hope you enjoy your birthday and know how much we miss you with all my love mom

Happy Birthday, buddy boy. You would've been 31 today. We would have made a day out of it.

Hello my son happy fathers day this is so hard the pain i am feeling. Not able to see you i love you so much you are a wonderful father and. A son i hope you can read all the messages on here your girls miss you so much we love you jason. Mom

Happy Father’s Day in heaven jason the girls miss you so much today was especially hard for Jolene in the beginning so I told her we would release balloons to u I hope u get them n see how much they miss u. It breaks my heart as this holiday is suppose to be all about u an the girls an this being their first one without u breaks them apart. U where nothing less then a amazing loving caring father an now it’s all on me to do both for them. We love u more then words can say. U were always their for them an show them nothing but love.

Morning my son. I started to go to church i just got back doing a lot of praying for us i asked god to give me strength to help me accept my lost and. Faith my health has not been good but in time i will be with you and my pain will be gone i love you mom

Well just the other day Jolene said to me mommy why is the number 5 your lucky number bc it’s not lucky to me bc my daddy left me on the 5th day of the month I said hunny it’s always been mommy’s lucky number I would have never in a million years knew something like this would happen but I said to her I think it was for a reason as daddy was trying to tell mommy something. I said I know daddy still loved mommy an althou it’s not a way I wanted daddy to show me daddy had a lot going on and stuff I said but I told ur daddy I was proud of him for coming such a long way an I will always be proud of him know matter what, but Jason all I ask is that you please continue to look over our babies and help me anyway I can to get threw this long life I have to endure with our girls u r our Angel an always will be forever and always we speak of u daily an wish everyday that u where here with us to do so many things. I still do not look forward to the day our girls get married and they need their daddy to walk them down the isle or their daddy for the first time they start to drive all the firsts u r not here I do not look forward to it eats an kills Me inside everyday. We love u Jason n miss u so much

My son no words can express how much i miss you so many thoughts go through my head anger sad hurt confused. Its hard for me to be around anyone. I am going through a hard time with being depressed and why god took you i had faith and i lost it when i lost you. I hope you are reading all of are notes we left you my life will never be the same becouse if i was there i believe this would of never happen i love you crying. My eyes out. Love mom

It’s going to be June soon which marks 3 months you have left us. It’s still a hard pill to swollow knowing you are not hear. Our daughters hurt every single day they miss you more an more and it kills me to see it in their eyes. Your birthdays coming up as well which you would have been 31 this still hurts as my dad passed at 32 n now you at 30 life isn’t fair I know but why does god have to take the ones people love the most and need the most. Being mommy an daddy for our girls is not the easiest I struggle a lot. We miss you jason an you not being here we have a big hole in our hearts I wish you never left us especially when you did. We love you an miss you more then anything keep watching over our girls please they need you just as much as I do help us continue to get threw this please this is not easy at all.

Hello, Son of mine in heaven. I can't put into words how very missed you are. I hope you're acclimating yourself to your new emanation of existence, and find yourself at peace. It's a terrible thing for a father to lose a son at 30 years old, and I will never get over it. Your name is still in conversations between myself and your brother every single day. God smile on you and give you peace.
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Sorry it’s been a few days Jason things have been a bit crazy lately. I took the girls to knoebles on Saturday it was a little wild as I had my adopted children ( I say that bc it’s Dora’s grandchild but they are always with me an call me momma) along with our girls. And Jolene is very close to Mauricio as they click an understand one another very well bc of their conditions lol. Jolene had a rough day their for a little while bc she wanted to make sure she went on every single ride u and her went on last year for Jules bday, but as I told her we will be going down again this summer. Our Jules lost your ashes bc they some how fell off her necklace not so she didn’t get upset as I told her U loved Knoebles so a part of u is now their an that’s okay that u would be so happy to be in a place like that as u had one hell of a time last year when we went their. We miss u so much Jason there is so many days I want to give up bc it gets so hard. Our Jolene is the most difficult one, there is days I feel she hates me for how angry she gets with me, but I know it’s hurt but I feel I failed her I feel I let her down or that she feels it’s all my fault, I feel it’s all my fault. I know u never stopped loving me I feel this all lead to happening bc the hurt n depression u felt bc of me. I never stopped loving u I told u how proud I was of u for going back to work n so on. I need your help with all our girls Jolene may be the hardest for me but Jenna has some really bad days as well along with Jules but I am able to get them under control but Jolene is my hugest challenge of them all. We still have so much hurt in our hearts, soul an eyes. Our life’s will never be the same without u here. The things we do we wish u could be here to do with us it hurts us a lot everyday. Please continue to help me with this all an to watch over our babies an the rest of our family they need u just as much as we do. Dad Kevin Tara n mom all need u to. Give us some sort of sign ur doing okay up their. I hope u r with everyone that u love n that u got to meet my dad we miss an love u so much

My. Son. I hope you are reading the messages went to see the girls and jodelle on mothers day and there doing good they miss you so much. And i got a beautiful catd from jodelle and a necklace with your pic now i feel so close to you. She made my day i see in her eyes how much she is hurting and the kids it makes me so sad she and the kids have it so nice with all your memories. And ty for the happy mothets day. We love you jason mom

Hello my son. My jason everyday it gets so hard on me your always on my mind i wake up at night crying. The pain is so hard and being alone makes it even so worse trying to stay strong but its not working your are never alone always with. I asked god please bring him back to me i need him back with us i love you jason please use your wings and come back please my life i know will not be around long i am losing strength and my health is fading with out you so soon i will be with you your all i have love you mom

So last night on my way to dads all of a sudden songs that where ur favorite came on an u brightened up my night as it was a very hard day for our Jenna bear an trying to help her cope is very hard even when jolenes days are bad. But hearing them I know it was u telling me everything will be okay an that u r right their with me trying to help me threw it. Jason I still struggle a lot with out u here so do the girls I don’t know how life is going to get any easier bc it’s not going to. U have know idea how much ur loved let alone missed. We love u jason n miss u so very much ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Hello. My son. I am here. I will always be here for you. We so much miss you. And your daughters miss you so much i want you to know i talk to you every night and. I know your doing ok you are. Sleeping good and you are safe with god and. Nana and pop are there with you. I love you jason. Mom

My son. My pain i miss you. If i can only have you back. I will never be happy i keep asking my self why. They always say you cam die from a broken heart. And i believe that. The tears wont stop or the hurt. You were always there for me to talk to and to understand. No one can understand. How i am dealing with this and how it has affected my life. I some times wonder how long i can go on. Time will tell.

My son, I miss you terribly. We had such an amazing night the final night of your life. I never dreamed that when I said good night to you it would be the final time. I know that you are at peace. I will always love, miss, and remember you with great fondness. Rest easy son knowing that your girls and wife will always be with family.

My son. My world my pumkin. How do i go on i see you in my dreams. I miss you so much my life is never going to be the same your death was ruled a accident that you never new would happen sometimes things happen for a reason but i know your in gods hands and were here for you and watching over you we love you forever in our hearts mom

I still miss you so much jason! We think about you everyday over here. I’m telling vivienne stories about her uncle jason I do wish you were able to meet her but I know you are watching over all of us. I love you forever big brother
Rest In Peace 

Jason. Remember you are not alone were here with you. Jodelle and the girls miss you so much she has your spirit there with you and the girls have it set up so nice i know your watching from above and were all trying to be strong but its not ever going to be i feel so alone hurt cry almost every day. I wish i new everything you were feeling. I could of just been with you. And helped you i just cant accept it my life is so torn apart with out you crying my heart out. Its the worst pain to go through i have no life knowing. Your not here to talk to see you tell you how much i loved you. In time i will be with you to hold forever and never let go they always say you can die from a broken heart and i believe that. May you see me soon my son. Mom

When I first met jason we were in 9th grade, I remember like it was yesterday he would always steal my notebooks an drawl all over them lol or would ask me if he can copy my notes bc he would always fuck off in class lol. It wasn’t till towards the end of our 12th grade year that we had decided to date and from that moment on our lives began together. In 2010 we had a miscarriage n then was told I may not be able to have any kids, we got married August 16,2011 and in a few short months on February 19th 2012 we had our first daughter the first time I ever seen him lay his eyes on her I knew he would be the most amazing father out their as she stole his heart right then an their. Sure enough she was a daddy’s girl all the way around, but it doesn’t end their on September 30th 2013 we had our second daughter and his reaction was the same when he first saw her that was it he had two beautiful little girls that have now stolen his heart without questions he loved them with all he had. Then on April 15th 2015 we had our final daughter n althou we both wanted a boy we were beyond thrilled to have another daughter. Bc u knew that u wouldn’t have one daddy’s girl but u would have 3 beautiful girls that where, u would do what ever it took to make sure they had everything they deserved along with me. U where nothing less then an amazing father n husband. Our life with u was nothing but great. I would never take back anything back that we went threw together u taught me so much abut life as I know I did as well. We taught one another what true real love was. Know matter what ever happened or went on with us I always had nothing but love for u even now that is all I have that’s why it hurts so much. I never wanted u to leave u were not suppose to leave me here like this we were suppose to watch our babies grow up as we grew old jason. I feel like I failed u like I could have done more I wish I knew how u felt more, even the day before this happened u where so happy that night u where I’m so lost bc I don’t understand. We love u jason an miss u more then ever. ❤️❤️❤️

Hello my son. Today is easter sunday april 4 2021. Its not the same with out you. Its so very hard for me not having. You here for dinner as a family. And i got your favorite peanut butter easter egg. I love you jason happy easter. My son. Love you mom xxx ooo

Hello my son. I wish i vould of done more for you i love you. May god hold you and protect you. Keep you from hurting and being alone. I know your resting. And. No longer in no pain i love you. Mom

Hello my son. You have your wings now. I hope you are. Getting your rest. We miss you. And. We cant wait to celerbrate your birthday on june 27th 2021 were going to send balloons up to you. And sing happy birthday to you. Were always here with you. I we love you.

Rest easy little brother! It's never gonna be the same without you. Love ya!

My son. I lay here and think god wanted you with him he saw how much you were suffering with pain and depression you been through so much with hurt and alone but you were never alone if i only new what you were going through i would of been there i always ask god please watch over him and dont let him hurt or suffer any more so i believed god took you to be with him only becouse he wanted to protect you and keep you safe with him and now you can rest in piece with the lord by your side and angles around you making you laugh and you looking down on your family to make sure were all ok and we love you amen

My son. Cant stop crying thinking about you i know your in gods hands and he is watching over you remember how much we all love you your forever with us love you my pumkin

My son my pumkin my heart hurts no words can say how much i love you and miss you may god be with you and one day i will be with you i will remember you with laughter not with tears your for ever in my heart mom