☆ Officially a Doctor ☆
July 24, 2021
24th July 2021
Soon after your funeral, your graduation certificate arrived in the mail. We were still in lockdown and it broke my heart to not be able to share this incredibly proud moment with any of the people who have been watching you grow and eagerly waiting for you to achieve this incredible milestone. The first thing that came to mind was how you stood by my side at Amma's memorial a year earlier and vowed to see her dream through - and you kept your promise..yet neither of you were here to celebrate. Amma had even bought a gorgeous saree to wear to your graduation ceremony. She had no doubt you'd make it through and she would've been so so proud of you - we all are. After having to hold your funeral in the midst of lockdown last year, I was hoping to share the news about your graduation today on the anniversary of your passing. We'd planned to have a memorial for you in Melbourne - something more casual with family and friends, an open bar, music, tears and lots of laughter as we reminisced over the crazy stories everyone had to share - and yet here we are isolated in lockdown again. I can't even visit the beach where we scattered your ashes so all I can do right now is update your memorial page for you and spend the day here in NICU reading all the heartfelt tributes to your baby niece Nila. I'm beyond shattered that she'll never get to meet her uncle. She's still so fragile but she's been a little warrior so far and we know she has two guardian angels looking over her so she'll have to come home with us eventually.
My mind is still struggling to comprehend that you're really gone. We've spent the majority of this year in and out of hospital and it breaks my heart every time I see a junior doctor around as I know that could've been you. There's even a young doctor here in NICU where Nila is who reminds us so much of you - he has the same kind of unkempt hair that I made you cut before our wedding, wears fun funky scrubs every time he's in, and makes time for parents when they're given distressing news about their baby to try and make their ordeal a little less harder - all of which you would've done..but you also had that infectious smile and showed so much compassion towards everyone you met - you would've made an absolutely incredible doctor. It wasn't until you left us that we realised how many lives you actually touched, how many people you helped when they were going through a tough time - all within such a short period of time too. I'm sorry for all the times I told you off for being so antisocial when you were glued to your phone texting - I now see how stretched you were as you carved time out for so many people and always went above and beyond to support anyone who needed it. It pains me to think of how many more souls you could’ve touched, how many more lives you could've saved or at least helped as a doctor - its a lot easier said than done but I'm still trying to find solace in assuming you're resting in peace with Amma. I just wish there was a way for me to know for sure but at least I know you're no longer hurting now. I miss you every day and I love you more than you'll ever know. Rest easy Thamby ♡ I'm so incredibly proud of you!
Soon after your funeral, your graduation certificate arrived in the mail. We were still in lockdown and it broke my heart to not be able to share this incredibly proud moment with any of the people who have been watching you grow and eagerly waiting for you to achieve this incredible milestone. The first thing that came to mind was how you stood by my side at Amma's memorial a year earlier and vowed to see her dream through - and you kept your promise..yet neither of you were here to celebrate. Amma had even bought a gorgeous saree to wear to your graduation ceremony. She had no doubt you'd make it through and she would've been so so proud of you - we all are. After having to hold your funeral in the midst of lockdown last year, I was hoping to share the news about your graduation today on the anniversary of your passing. We'd planned to have a memorial for you in Melbourne - something more casual with family and friends, an open bar, music, tears and lots of laughter as we reminisced over the crazy stories everyone had to share - and yet here we are isolated in lockdown again. I can't even visit the beach where we scattered your ashes so all I can do right now is update your memorial page for you and spend the day here in NICU reading all the heartfelt tributes to your baby niece Nila. I'm beyond shattered that she'll never get to meet her uncle. She's still so fragile but she's been a little warrior so far and we know she has two guardian angels looking over her so she'll have to come home with us eventually.
My mind is still struggling to comprehend that you're really gone. We've spent the majority of this year in and out of hospital and it breaks my heart every time I see a junior doctor around as I know that could've been you. There's even a young doctor here in NICU where Nila is who reminds us so much of you - he has the same kind of unkempt hair that I made you cut before our wedding, wears fun funky scrubs every time he's in, and makes time for parents when they're given distressing news about their baby to try and make their ordeal a little less harder - all of which you would've done..but you also had that infectious smile and showed so much compassion towards everyone you met - you would've made an absolutely incredible doctor. It wasn't until you left us that we realised how many lives you actually touched, how many people you helped when they were going through a tough time - all within such a short period of time too. I'm sorry for all the times I told you off for being so antisocial when you were glued to your phone texting - I now see how stretched you were as you carved time out for so many people and always went above and beyond to support anyone who needed it. It pains me to think of how many more souls you could’ve touched, how many more lives you could've saved or at least helped as a doctor - its a lot easier said than done but I'm still trying to find solace in assuming you're resting in peace with Amma. I just wish there was a way for me to know for sure but at least I know you're no longer hurting now. I miss you every day and I love you more than you'll ever know. Rest easy Thamby ♡ I'm so incredibly proud of you!