I was so shocked and not long after, extremely sad when I found out. We've known each other for many many years. We've spent many happy and sad moments together. Remember how our families always got together to eat? Remember when I was mad at you for that little hamster incident when we were kids? You were always smiling, so huggable, and amazing at playing the piano. Now I realize I should have spent more time with you, get to know you a little more, but I don't have a chance to anymore. But rest in peace now. You will be missed.
21st month. Finally we got the report. But we still have no idea why you left. It becomes a mystery likely never be released.
The most important is your love will last forever.
Tiger, We love you, Forever.
20......
19 months......What's the reason? Noway a healthy young man pasted away in his sleep and no abnormal be found. VGH, give me the report.
14 months past. We are still waiting for the report in the endless darkness.His love is the only light with his parents.
8 Months past. We still don't know what happened to my dear Tiger. Only information from coroner is same: No injury, No poison or drug, No abnormal condition found. What could take my son away? My heart is broken. Dec 12,2017 Mom
For Tiger's family, the worst thing is losing him without definite cause of death found after almost 10 months. We have been patient enough to wait any words from the pathologist.
Perhaps we should feel bit comfort that our loved Tiger passed smoothly in his dream without any pain.
Tiger, if there is that matter people called it soul, please come to your mom's dream. She missed you so much. Your leaving leaves her in an endless darkness.
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Leave a tributeI was so shocked and not long after, extremely sad when I found out. We've known each other for many many years. We've spent many happy and sad moments together. Remember how our families always got together to eat? Remember when I was mad at you for that little hamster incident when we were kids? You were always smiling, so huggable, and amazing at playing the piano. Now I realize I should have spent more time with you, get to know you a little more, but I don't have a chance to anymore. But rest in peace now. You will be missed.
Now as I reflect on our memories together, I regret never having the time to visit your new house, I regret rejecting your invitations because of some AP class. I regret not seeing you one last time.
Brother, rest in peace, I know you will be smiling, forever, because that's just you.
I am sorry.
Thank you, for everything.
I was writing a project in the middle of the night in this strange city and country when I heard this sudden and shocking news from back home. Immediately, memories of us rushed into my mind and I was unable to control my tears. Do you remember how we used to divide our desk into "Vancouver" and "London" in Ms. Fraser's class? Well, just as we hoped, I'm now in London and you stayed in Vancouver, but this time, you are staying there forever. How I wished you could come to the real London to visit one day! Do you remember how you never brought a pen to class so every time I lent you that broken ball point pen with the spring missing? There are so many more pieces of memories that I cant forget and will never forget about. You brought happiness into my life and even thought you are not here anymore you will forever remain my good friend in my heart.
Rest in Peace,
Your friend Phoebe
相信你是去天堂了,在那里,你会永远年轻而快乐……
---宝宝娘
葳葳妈咪
-- 雪雪妈
即使看不见,相信你一定会在家里的,只是看不见,在的。
我记得出事几天前的那次我去看你,在电梯里你如往常一般搂住我,在我的脸上亲了一下,说:妈妈,我爱你!你爱我吗?我笑说:这可是在公共场所,有摄像头的!这个场景、这个问话永远没有新意,不会改变,已经有十年了吧?只是以前你只够搂住我的腰的高度,现在你得弯下腰来亲你的妈妈了。
今天下午,我终于见到了你。说实话,西装穿上,头发整理好,这个翩翩少年有点让我觉得陌生,不是那个一年四季穿同样一套衣服,随随便便的你了。昨晚,我睡在你的床上,跟你喃喃了几乎一夜,我说让我哭够了,明天我见到你时一定不哭!我以为很难,我以为我做不到。可是,当我坐在你身旁的时候,我突然觉得这一点都不难啊!我跟你说话,就象那天我们在你公寓的电梯里......只是,今天你好乖,不跟我犟嘴了!我和爸爸就这样坐在你身边,跟你说话,想起了你以前好多搞笑的事情。说起你经常躲在拐角处等着突然跳出来吓唬我和姐姐,有一次,你躲在那里朝向你以为依依姐姐会走来的方向严阵以待,偏偏姐姐那天不知道为什么从另外一边出来,径直走到你身后,把你吓了一大跳。臭小子,你也有这样糗的时候啊!:)
姐姐坐在稍远一点的沙发上,她似乎比妈妈更哀伤。说起你在Mr. Quan的化学课迟到,买了一杯Latte带给Mr.Quan, 用多了一个字母t的咖啡,代替你对你late的歉意,你怎么那么有创意呢?以至于Mr. Quan 把这事晒到他的Facebook里!我们就一直说、一直说......今天,你没有嫌我烦、啰嗦了。今天,你好乖!
谢谢Victory Memorial Park的贴心安排,明天、后天我们都有时间再这样跟你交谈。等着,我今天要使劲回忆,把你的糗事都想起来,明天一起数落一下你!
儿子,今天妈妈搂着你、亲你的脸,觉得有点凉!就象某个寒冷的冬日你从外面顶着大风回来,手凉、脸凉、鼻子凉!妈妈今天听到你说:妈妈我爱你!你爱我吗?亲爱的儿子,我今天回答的是:我爱你,我一直爱你,永远爱你!
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咱们的船自2017年初从香港回加拿大后就一直泊在Point Roberts码头,中间因为covid美加边境不能随便通行,爸爸请人把船开回了加拿大泊了1年多,其余时间都泊在这里。这里算是是咱们的船停靠时间最长的码头了。
爸爸第一次来这个码头还是跟你一起来的,你应该也记得。那是爸爸刚刚学习航海的时候,还是那条29.5英尺长的Hunter,母港是blaine harbor。那时候爸爸不懂如何开船美加之间航行,以为可以随便过境呢。有一次爸爸和你一起带着几个朋友从blaine harbor出发在海湾里抓了几只螃蟹,然后就靠上了白石栈桥的码头。这时停靠在白石码头的一条船主就问爸爸报关了没有,爸爸一脸的茫然。那人就耐心地给爸爸解释了开船过境应该如何报关,还提醒爸爸既然已经违规了,应该马上主动打电话给海关说明情况,要求报关检查。爸爸听明白后就给海关打了电话,不一会来了2个海关官员,详细询问了有关情况,看在我们的确是不了解规定并不是明知故犯,就口头警告后帮我们办理了入关手续。这是咱们第一次正式合法开船进入加拿大。爸爸那时候英文非常差,整个过程都是你在翻译,电话也是你打的。
处理完加拿大的入境手续,下一个麻烦也就跟着来了,如何进入美国返回母港。询问那2个海关官员,他们说blaine harbor没有港口海关,必须去Point Roberts报关才行。就这样你又陪着爸爸从白石栈桥再次启航,航行了2个小时到了Point Roberts marina,在海关码头停好船,打电话给海关不一会来了一个海关官员,办好了进入美国的手续。爸爸记得那个官员跟你很说得来,整个过程都是你俩在说说笑笑,后来有一次爸爸自己带朋友航行去了Point Roberts也是这个官员来办理的入关手续,爸爸还跟他提起了咱俩那次报关的事情,他还记得你。
这是爸爸第一次到Point Roberts码头,那时没想到后来居然在这个码头泊了7年,还是你不在爸爸身边的7年……
爸爸和妈妈已经搬进新房子里了,建造新房子的初期你也参加过几次讨论。我们都很喜欢这个新房子,相信你也会喜欢的。我们坚持完成这个房子的建造,很大程度也是因为你。因为你参与这个房子的建造,虽然只有很少的几次,但对爸爸和妈妈来说是永恒的。
爸爸认为温哥华一年只有雨季和夏季2个季节,现在雨季基本结束,很快就是夏季了。今年爸爸自己设计了dinghy的davits,找了一家machine shop完成部件的焊接,已经安装了一部分,预计下周就全部安装完成,那样就可以把dinghy吊在船后面,大大方便了dinghy的使用。自从爸爸有了船,你就一直是dinghy船长。在爸爸心中现在你仍然是dinghy船长,每次看到dinghy爸爸都会想起当年你开着dinghy的各种事情。
夏天快到了,这个夏天爸爸会有很多事情要跟你说的。
2024年的新年刚刚过去,节日都是喜庆的,但自从你离开之后,喜庆已经不属于爸爸和妈妈了。所以爸爸也就没有了节日的概念。爸爸至今也不知道我们来这个世界,拥有这样的意识是为了什么。无论古今无论中外无论物种,意识深处都有一种东西,迫使每个个体都在努力地延续生命,这种延续究竟是什么目的?生命如此渺小,还危机四伏,为什么呢?仰望星空,神在哪里?如果有神,是我们想象中的那样吗?如果有神,渺小的生命又能怎样呢?
太多未知、太多无奈了。爸爸想着如果能跟你一起讨论这些内容一定会很享受,因为你总是会有一些独特的思路和逻辑,会有另外的视角看待一些事情。只是有这个机会的时候,一是你还有点小,二是爸爸没有意识到那种机会的宝贵,三是那时候的爸爸还不是一个好爸爸,所以留下的只能是终身的遗憾了。
已经是2月底了,感觉夏天很快就要来了,今年夏天爸爸可能会有比较多的时间在海上。现在出海比你那时候陪爸爸出海的时候条件好了很多,爸爸今年要在船上装上星链系统,这样在海上上网就跟家里没什么区别了。爸爸记得那时候你不太愿意陪爸爸出海的一个原因就是船上上网不方便。只是爸爸现在再也没有机会说服你陪爸爸一起出海了……